Experience Description

I suddenly was aware I was a spirit looking down at my body. The relatives in the room were arguing over who could comb my hair. My mother sat quietly in a chair. My grandfather was talking to someone who appeared to be God but it was actually only light. I could not see God but I could hear his voice. My grandfather was asking God to let me stay with him. I was a good person. My grandfather's pet boxer was with him on a leash. I could feel the love between the dog and my grandfather. God reviewed my life. I felt some fear as I felt I was being judged and was not good enough for God. God told me I did something good that pleased him and seemed to try to ease my fears. It was something about helping a boy child in some way. God appeared only as a light and an authoritative voice. I could not see him. Afterwards he asked me if I wanted to stay or go back. I thought for a second and was given a vision of the future wherein my mother would get cancer. I felt in my heart that she would need me as I told God nobody would be there to help her. At that point, I returned to my body.

My mother did get breast and cancer, and of the uterus later on, and I was her main support. That was probably fifteen years ago.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1984

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt in coma on llife-support In comma due to overdose -- on life support. Family told to prepare for my death. Given last rites.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Unconscious.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Grandfather and God were talking though.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Grandfather, his dog, and the light of God.

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Definitely there is a spiritual level that brings us to the dimension I reached, and surely there are other levels.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fear, awe, surprise.

The experience included: Life review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I did not know such an experience could happen. Yes, it assured me there is an afterlife, we will be judged, and God does love us, but we must try to do our best to live the life that is pleasing in his eyes. Yes, the most important part of earthly life is your relationship with God, and his people.

The experience included: Vision of the future

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future Very accurate. I visioned my mother getting cancer. She did get it and I was her sole support, as I felt I would be.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will See narrative.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

What is your religion now? Moderate

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes It proved the afterlife is very real and we should be prepared.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No I, as a child, had an ability to foresee occurrences of my life in the future which always happen as I see it. They usually are bad experiences which I cannot seem to change.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Fear of being judged and not knowing if God would accept me. God talking to me and reassuring me everything will be okay. God sharing the future with me and sending me back, as if it were my decision, but the one God knew I would choose.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes As a faith sharing experience. It reassures people of the afterlife, and judgment and love.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It only reminds me, God is so powerful and so real.