I had asked the nurse who was injection me with the dye for the kidney x-ray to make sure my kidney was okay to donate to my brother that was having kidney failure. The nurse said we only inject people with half first to see if they have an allergic reaction. I could feel the serum like a warm track going right to my heart and I knew I was having a reaction. I felt a pain in my heart. I no longer could move anything or say anything. I heard the nurse scream and push a button on the wall - code red or blue?
I felt the nurses and doctors trying to revive me. They had put the paddles on me twice but my heart did not start. Then the doctor climbed onto my body, took a large needle, thrust it into my chest, and pushed the plug down - I then felt my heart start up.
The amazing thing was I was outside of my body looking at myself. The first thing that happened when I realized I couldn't speak was that I could not blink my eyes. The color went out of everything and turned to black and white then I was outside of my body looking at myself. I felt like my life had flashed before me. I was at peace and no pain. When my heart started up I could feel myself go back into my body. I went into a coma and didn't wake up for days.
This was the second time I had this happen to me, the first time I had cut my arm and I had lost all my blood and my heart stopped, I was brought back to life when they gave me blood. I was hovering over my body. The only thing I remember is when I came back into my body. When the doctor had the nurse check my eyes and I heard the doctor say, 'Is he dead yet?'
Date NDE Occurred: April 1996
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-relatedAllergic reaction IVP Dye injection test for donation of my kidney for my brother. I had allergic reaction to the Dye injection before the Kidney X-ray. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) .
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I felt a connection with everything. Intensity like I have never experienced. After this experience I have never been afraid of dying.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was watching the doctors and nurses trying to revive me. I didn't feel any urgency to return to my body. I felt everything was going to be alright.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Felt like everything had slowed down like a moment was hours then everything sped up I do not remember anything when I was brought back to life. I cannot remember anything for weeks after.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Everything was in color but after my heart stopped everything went to black and white.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? My hearing increased I felt like I could hear a pin drop miles away, my hearing and perception have increased.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No A gap in time like I went from lying on the exam table, to standing next to my body, to hovering over myself, to instantly inside myself.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw an older man in robes; he was very cold looking no expression on his face. I was scared at first then I relaxed and he was gone.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes When I first lost my heartbeat I tried to blink my eyes and then I noticed I couldn't blink then the color went out of everything and turned to black and white. Then little white spots came at me like I was flying in space. Then a zap of a white light and I then was next to myself. I could plainly see myself.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calmness, joy, excitement. Like I have been born to another dimension.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control Realized that life as we see and feel it was not exactly how things are. There is another part to this world we cannot explain.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future One hundred percent.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Brought up Lutheran and Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Believe more in things I didn't believe in before, psychic abilities.
What is your religion now? Moderate Spiritual
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Believe more in things I didn't believe in before, psychic abilities.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Everything has a plan a purpose and a time. If the time is not right nothing you can do will change anything.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes More direct and forgiving.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Out of body experience hard to believe and explain, so many emotions and feeling at the same time.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Ability to look at people and tell what type of person they are and a better intuition about people and things that will happen.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The experience of calmness and no worries.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes If I tell anyone about this experience they find it hard to believe.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Let me know there's more to life than what we think is normal.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Part of life growing experience.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? More research is needed to help people who have experienced this so it is not such an unbelievable thing to explain to people.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Photos of the places that these experiences happened, movie reenactments for a reality show, to help people understand it's not abnormal.