My ulcer literally exploded as soon as the cauterizing needle touched it. I was spouting blood out of my mouth like a fountain, so they told me.
It was then that I realized I was above my body looking down at it and at the hospital staff working hard trying to save me. I just floated there watching them. I didn't feel any fear or pain, just a very deep feeling of being at peace with everything and everyone. It felt incredible!
I floated down and onto the floor. I'm not sure why I did this, but when I did I realized that I wasn't alone. There were what I can only describe as ghosts floating past me and out through the double glass doors that went out into the hallway. In the hallway, there are giant pillars in front of the ICU doors and at the pillar directly in front of my room there were 6 children, dressed in old fashioned clothes that you would wear to church. They were playing 'Ring around the Rosy'. The 'ghosts' were drifting past the children and into this beautiful amber glow which was on the other side of them. They would then disappear from sight.
I started to step through the door, because I wanted to watch the children and float into the glow. Suddenly I heard a voice behind me. I turned around and there up in the corner of the ceiling was an incredibly beautiful Chinese Dragon. He was azure and lime colored, with every color of the rainbow running down his back. At the same time, as the doctor continued to work on me, I also saw a collie size blood red scorpion walking around and around my bed. The Dragon smiled and told me not to be afraid. He said he was there to help me and the scorpion was there to protect me. I told him that was fine but that I was going out to the children and into the amber glow. He smiled again, but it was more of a sad smile. He told me I couldn't do that as I wasn't done yet. I said as far as I was concerned I was, and turned to step out the door only to find that I couldn't. I turned and told him it wasn't fair, that I was old, tired and ready to go. He just smiled again and said no, it is not your time. He told me I had many more things to do, and many more miles and mountains before it would be. Then he floated down to where I was and touched the first finger on his right hand to the area of where the third eye is located.
He showed me many things that were to occur. He showed me myself, my children, the world, other worlds and other peoples as like a carefully orchestrated symphony - highs and lows, death and destruction, new life and rebuilding. The exquisite beauty and peace that would ultimately come to pass. He told me until these events were fulfilled it was necessary for me to stay and to help everyone I could in every way that I could. I don't want to go into any great detail about the events and things he showed me, not now any way. He said what he showed me was for me to see and that until I understood everything I had seen it would be best to keep it to myself and that I would know when the time was right to share it. I will say this there is much turmoil to come but also great joy and beauty - great peace. With that, he touched my forehead again, and I was once again in my body. It was two days later.
This wasn't the first time I had seen the Dragon. I had seen him four times previously, although he had never spoken then. I have seen him twice since, although I don't wish to talk about those experiences yet.
Date NDE Occurred: I've had 7 NDE's spanning 56 years
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Illness. Childbirth Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
The date and time of my death was May 29 2000 at 12:00 pm and I was dead for 43 minutes.
I had been in and out of the hospital for several months prior to this. I was having a badly damaged esophagus and stomach repaired, due to ulcers and erosion. By the time I died doctors had removed a fourth of my esophagus and the top part of my stomach.
I had been extremely ill and in considerable pain for the 2 week period prior to going into the hospital on Thursday May 27 2000. The doctors thought I was having a difficult time adjusting to everything they had done to my insides. In reality, they had missed a large ulcer in my duodenum. It had eaten through the wall and I was slowly bleeding internally. On that date, I was getting ready to go to work and had just stepped out of the shower onto the cold tile floor, and when I did my legs buckled and I fell down. I realized that something was wrong so I crawled into the living room and called the surgeon who was taking care of me. Based on the description I gave to her she knew right away that I was bleeding internally, and told me to get to the hospital immediately. I woke my son who was staying with me at the time and he took me to the hospital a couple of blocks away. The hospital staff took me into the emergency room and did some preliminary tests which showed I was bleeding internally, although they weren't sure where. They put me on whole blood and started running various tests to figure out where the leak was. After doing a scope down my throat, they found the ulcer they had missed. They stabilized me until they could go in the next morning and burn it closed.
On Friday May 28 2000, they cauterized the ulcer. I was told my blood pressure would return to normal and I would feel much better by the following morning, neither of which happened.
On the morning of Saturday May 29 2000, I was a lot worse than I had been before the procedure. They decided the ulcer had opened back up. At 12:00 pm, they went back in to repair it once again. That is when; as they put it 'all hell broke loose'.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The entire time.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time had no relevance, like it didn't exist.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see through things.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was incredibly clear. I normally suffer from tinnitus.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Please see narrative above.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The light was a beautiful amber glow, like the warm glow of coals after the fire has gone down.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Read 3 above.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, love, happiness and anger - not in that order.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control No review of past, although I did see several things to help me complete my task, mission, goal - not sure what to call it.
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future Please see narrative above.
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes Please see narrative above.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal None
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate Shingon Buddhist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Please see narrative above.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was difficult to express into words that others could understand. Too many have very definite ideas of what they think a NDE is or what it should be.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No I've always had certain abilities.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I would rather not at this time.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No A year passed. It was met with skepticism.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Please see narrative above. All experience affects all other experience.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Reality is subjective by nature. The average person only sees approximately one fourth of all reality.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I have died and returned twice since this occurrence.