Experience Description

I was eating breakfast with my then husband. We were talking and laughing, when a piece of biscuit was caught in my throat. I couldn't breathe.

There was no pain, but I was scared not being to breathe. I remember gasping for air, and then everything went grey. I saw a light grey everywhere. It was slowly getting darker, and darker, going from the grey to almost black. I heard a voice, or a muffled sound I thought was a voice that said, 'We are not ready. Not yet.' At that point, it started getting lighter and lighter, and I woke up with my husband sitting in front of me with tears in his eyes.

His mother was behind me pounding on my back. I gasped for a breath of air, and yelled at her to stop. I then said to my mother-in-law and husband, 'It doesn't hurt. Dying doesn't hurt.' They both backed away from me, and had looks in their eyes as if they didn't understand what I was saying. We never spoke about it again. I have never told anyone about my experience, only because I don't think they would believe me. I am not afraid.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1997

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Choking 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'

How do you consider the content of your experience? Frightening

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While I was choking. Everything was crystal clear, but I was afraid.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was like having all the cobwebs blown out of your head. The grey was clear, and going forward toward the black was crystal clear. Nothing else was in my mind.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There was no noise, except for the voice that talked to me. It seems clear, but distant.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Darkness

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? There was fear while I was choking, but as the grey entered my mind I felt no fear, almost peacefulness. I did feel all alone, no one was there. I saw no one.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Moderate

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I divorced my husband, and remarried some ten years later. I had too much clutter and negativity in my life, and that experience made me feel like I needed to get rid of it.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I was having problems in my marriage at the time, nothing earth shattering, just plain marriage problems. When I started to go towards the grey, I felt like I had no more problems. So peaceful, and quiet, like if I spoke I would be heard.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I really wanted to stress how my life seemed so full of crap - Stuff that wasn't important and just clutter, my brain. Like it was full of old dust and cobwebs, like the attic of a house.