I live in constant pain. As part of my pain regimen, I'm allowed four Tylenol a day. Well, I took 10. When they took me to the hospital, I was already developing jaundice and I was confused. At first, they thought I just was having a hypoglycemic reaction and they gave me some juice to drink: big mistake, my liver had shut down. I don't really remember that part of it, but my mom says I died that day, that she saw me. Within about 20 minutes, I had died and they were transferring me from the Modesto hospital to the UCSF hospital in San Francisco for a liver transplant. During this time my liver completely shut down, my kidneys were operating at only 15%. By the time I got to the hospital in San Francisco, all my internal organs had shut down and my brain was starting to swell. They told my mom to plan my funeral. I remember the first person I saw was my step-grandfather who had died just a day before. I remember thinking ‘what are you doing here?’ He just smiled and told me to ‘come along.’ I don't remember a tunnel or anything, we just walked a bit, all of the sudden I saw a lot of people running around, doing things, and they were very happy. I saw bowls of fire. People were putting their hands in them and they were not burning. I saw angels. I can't really remember much about them, but they were there. I do remember ‘happy crosses.’ There were crosses dancing in the landscape, they were happy. I tried to take in all of this. No one was really talking to me.All of the sudden, I saw Jesus. He was wearing black jeans with holes in them and a black T-shirt (my mother would say later when I told her about this, that she was happy Jesus had updated his wardrobe!). I sat there next to him and we talked about my life. He asked me if I wanted to go back. I told him ‘not especially’. He then lovingly, and patiently told me that I needed to go back to take care of my mother. Then I felt a tug on my hand and I woke up from the coma. My mom was holding my hand. I felt totally at peace. Everything in heaven was extremely clear. I saw other relatives: my grandmother and my grandfather. They were busy and laughing. The colors in heaven were like they were on steroids.
Date NDE Occurred: 6/1/2013
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Drug or medication overdose. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I had an accidental overdose of Tylenol. It shut down my liver (completely), my kidneys, I developed ARDS [Acute respiratory distress syndrome.]. I was in a coma; only because I was hooked up to life support I lived. My mother says she saw me die.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No I didn't see my body or anything on earth. It was like I was in a different place and I had no reason to look back.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was talking to Jesus. It was like I understood everything at the same time. Jesus and I didn't talk like people talk here: we just kind of looked at each other. No words were needed, but they were heard. Jesus was kind and patient; the love I felt was overwhelming.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There was no time. It was just being.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I wear glasses on earth. Everything in heaven is more vivid, clearer: like a window just washed.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear everything at once and separately. It's like being in a crowd and hearing different conversations at the same time but being able to hear all of them distinctly and understand them all at the same time.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw my step-grandfather who died the day before. I saw my maternal grandmother and my paternal grandfather.
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain Everything was like a white light: a pure light. The light emanated from God.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Described above.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Extreme happiness, confusion, I didn't understand what was happening. I never got the idea that I was dead because I was so alive. I was amazed at what was happening.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will Jesus explained that I needed to return to take care of my mom. Then it was instantaneous! I was back in my body and I opened my eyes after 10 days of being in a coma and not expected to live.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Slightly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant I was raised a Christian and have always believed in God, but I've had doubts too especially since I have had a hard life--I was gang raped when I was 13 and I broke my back with a rare disease when I was 17. I live in constant pain.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I pray more. I crave that talk with God. I have started attending church again because I want to know more. I am closer with God.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I believed in God, but because of my life experiences I sometimes doubted his existence.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I don't doubt anymore.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I talked to Jesus. I knew him and he knew me. I was not afraid.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes I saw and talked with Jesus.
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably exists┬
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I talked to him!
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes My purpose is to take care of my mom.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes To love each other, to take care of each other.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists┬
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes By the mere presence of people I know who died, I could tell there was continued existence after earthly life.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes Jesus gave me the reason I couldn't die just then. It seems my mom is going to need help and I am here to give it.
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Uncertain I know Jesus and I talked about some of the things that have happened in my life, but I can't recall them now.
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Jesus loves me. He cares for me. He loves the people I love. He wants us all to love one another. He didn't have to say it, he showed it. He exuded it. I felt very loved and wanted.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. I suffered for 8 years from seizures before this happened. To date: 5 months later, I've only had one seizure since the experience. I am driving again, something I couldn't do before this happened. I have started attending church again. My faith is stronger. I am more confident. I know I have a purpose in this life, humble though it may be. I know when I die I will be with Jesus and the people I love. This is just a blip in time.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes I've gotten closer to my mom.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It's impossible to put into words. We don't have words for the experience in the English language. If you take the words I wrote and add the sights and sounds that I experienced, they would be pale. It's like I can only write a shadow of what happened.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events at time As time goes on, the experience dims.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain The seizures have stopped.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Speaking to Jesus.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my mom about it when I woke up. She was pleased and believed me. She helped me write them down and understand them.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain I had heard about it, but my dad always said that they could be explained by neurons misfiring at the time of death.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Because it happened. I was there. No one can tell me differently.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Nope!
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