It's in the fire-brigade truck that I made this journey.
It started with my passing through a tunnel. The colors were dark, like grays and browns. At the end of the tunnel was something like the edge of a ravine. I saw this white light that I can't explain because I had never seen a color like that before. I felt extraordinarily well. I remember that at a certain moment, I said, 'Good. It's okay, I will go.' Then a voice said, 'You have to return home. Your wife and your little dog are waiting for you.'
I knew a similar state while using LSD in 1968-1970 during the hippie years. During one of those journeys, my spirit had gotten a kind of absolute knowledge. Yet, when it was over, I was unable to understand what I had been understanding. Another time, I had an out of body experience in the 1980s while using hallucinogenic mushrooms. After passing a whole evening laughing, I went to my hut in Bali. I lay down on my bed. After a few minutes, I notice that I couldn't speak, move, or hear anything. Then in a timeless state, I saw myself. I was at about 80cm or 1m away from myself. I didn't feel any emotion. I not only saw myself on the bed, but I also saw myself in the air. There might have been some astonishment, but I'm not sure? And I woke up on the next morning.
In 2013, I had surgery for hernia. During the operation, I heard everything that was said in the room. Especially vivid was when the surgeon was telling that a colleague and his wife died in an car accident. In that experience I also didn't feel any emotion. I talked about this with this surgeon who was very astonished about this. Well, I think that I have been as precise as possible.
Date NDE Occurred: December 2016
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Heart attack. CPR given. Life threatening event, but not clinical death
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
Did you feel separated from your body?
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I heard everything that the firemen said. I remember saying 'Good. It's okay, I will go.' Then a voice said, 'You have to return home. Your wife and your little dog are waiting for you.'
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When seeing the white light.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was very dark in the truck. Before my vision was very good.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing was less good than before.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP?
NoDid you pass into or through a tunnel? The tunnel was dark, of gray and brown color.
Did you see any beings in your experience?
NoDid you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
NoDid you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Difficult as I never saw anything similar, I could say shiny ivory?
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
NoWhat emotions did you feel during the experience? Bliss
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt longer in conflict with nature
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?
NoDid scenes from your past come back to you?
NoDid scenes from the future come to you?
NoDid you come to a border or point of return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? I believe in a superior or total energy.
What is your religion now? Do not know
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? I always sense a presence above me.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?
NoDid you see deceased or religious spirits?
NoDid you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?
NoDuring your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence?
NoDuring your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness?
NoDuring your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God?
NoConcerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose?
NoDuring your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life?
NoDuring your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists
Did you gain information about how to live our lives?
NoDuring your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships?
NoDuring your experience, did you gain information about love?
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I'm not scared of death. I am much less materialistic. Although I never really was materialistic, but now nothing is serious.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience?
NoAfter the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? What is difficult in my case, is the fact of being confronted with an unusual situation, so I don't having the matching vocabulary. In short, words are difficult to find.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? I don't know about calling them paranormal. But I experienced several events that surprised me a bit, but I had not been paying attention to them. Now in retrospect, it's different. It would be too long to describe because there are several of those experiences. But the last one and not the least was the following: A week after leaving the hospital, I felt that a disaster would occur. I shared it with my wife. The following day, several cities had been flooded, including ours, due to the breaking of a dam. It's since this event that I really reconsidered my previous experiences.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I feel smaller less proud.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
NoWhat did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I can't explain it, except thinking about Benjamin Libet and his 0,5 second (that you for sure know about).
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I can't explain it, my scientific knowledge is very limited.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?
NoIs there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I would like to have another one to go further.
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