I had been ill for two days and the doctor had misjudged the seriousness of my disease. When on the second day my son arrived, I could just crawl up the stairs and lie upon my bed. Once on the bed, I felt like sinking further away. The huge pain disappeared, as did the concerns and anxiety. The only thing that remained was a feeling of peace. I floated through something towards a light. The feeling there was lovely! Peace, affection and an intense feeling of love. No stress, anxiety, worries or battle. I stood before three men who sent me back; behind them was a friend of mine who had passed away. I couldn't reach her. I was woken up, as what seemed to be several hours later, by my son. Only when I could see the panic in his eyes I realized that I was dying and something had to happen.
Date NDE Occurred: 7-3-2006
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' . Severely ill, stomach infection.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal The earthly way of looking at things subsides. In that way, it seems as if you have an objective and much bigger look on reality than you normally do.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning My regular sense of time was gone, or so it seemed. My experience only lasted a very short time, but afterwards I was informed that I was out for a period of about two hours.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No I floated through something, but whether that was a tunnel isn't clear.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Three men who stood before me and sent me back. Behind them stood a friend of mine who passed away a couple of years ago.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A very clear, all-encompassing light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, happiness.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future It seemed as if I've gotten a task. Until now it isn't clear whether my interpretation of this task is correct.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate 'geen, hoogstens spirituele'
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain Too little time has lapsed to judge my view. At this moment I have enough difficulties living life as it is.
What is your religion now? Moderate spiritueel
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain Too little time has lapsed to judge my view. At this moment I have enough difficulties living life as it is.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Kind of a spiritual overview.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I notice I react less stable to other peoples' emotions.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The experiences are hard to put into words as there are really no words for the feelings I had. This is the same for the environment that I encountered, there's just no earthly comparison to it.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Stronger sensitivity although this was already present before.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The feeling.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Six weeks. Reactions seem to remain shallow; I notice I can't describe the intense feelings I had.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes As a therapist I had theoretic knowledge of the NDE and what the consequences of it may be on your life.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Something in me has changed. I used to have a very positive attitude and joie de vivre. Now I have difficulties enjoying everything again. And this while every reason to be happy is present.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? What I miss in a lot of experiences and stories on the net is the effect on your daily life. I suffer from some kind of depression, of which I can't find much in other stories. Until now, I can't be happy with the experience.