I had had two dreams prior to this event where my mother and my friends were packing a suitcase and telling me I had to go to the hospital or I would die.
It turned out I needed a hysterectomy. My blood volume was low and going into surgery, I didn't feel fear, just tired and worn out.
During surgery, apparently, I remember leaving my body, and flying out of the room, down the halls and around corners. I then flew through the glass double doors in the entryway, and around the outside of the brick hospital building, gaining altitude as I flew. As I got up near the clouds, the street lights from below made them glow a pinkish color. I saw what looked to be thousands of angels, all in flowing robes or gowns, flying in the same direction. I struggled to 'catch up' with an angel to my right. Just as I had just about come up even with her, she smiled this gentle smile, and shook her head in a negative manner. I immediately dropped, waking up in my body. My body felt as though it was jolted with shock. My doctor was standing near the foot of the bed, looking very pale and shaken.
He told me that they had nearly lost me, indicating seven needle marks on my chest where they had injected me with adrenalin to jump start my heart and lungs.
Date NDE Occurred: January 1996
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) . I had to have a hysterectomy as I was trying to hemorrhage. My blood volume dropped so low during surgery that my heart and lungs could not function.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Even though I was physically unconscious, I felt very alive and intent on where I was going.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time wasn't an issue for me. But for the angel that 'sent' me back, it must have been.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? I passed through the doors and as I flew down the halls and around corners, I knew I was flying, not walking or running. I knew the doors were solid, but I had no concern about the fact that I was passing through them.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I don't remember 'hearing' anything.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes There were 'thousands' of angels, all flying in the same direction, below the clouds. When I tried to catch up with the closest angel, she didn't speak, just shook her head 'no' with a gentle smile. I was so disappointed but I knew it was right.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain The only light I saw was the glow of the pinkish street lights from down below reflecting off the clouds above us.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? As I was leaving my body, a sense of urgency. As I passed through the closed doors of the surgery and started flying down the halls, around corners, a sense of exhilaration and anticipation of something wonderful. There was such a thrill of excitement!
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist Baptist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist Baptist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Just that as much as I was ready to join those angels, it was not my time to do so.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I'm more open to talking about some experiences with people when I am sort of 'prompted' to.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Throughout the whole thing, from the dreams to the NDE, I knew that the Lord was directing and protecting me through it all. I understood, without anything being said, that I had more to do yet down here on earth. I knew, going into the surgery, a sense of peace but no fear, despite the dreams about dying. God is AWESOME.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It was a couple of weeks after the surgery that I told my mom and one of my sisters about it. They wondered why it wasn't the 'tunnel/bright light' experience but they knew, because I had told them of the two dreams prior to this event, and previous other experiences, some of them shared with me, that this had really happened. My mom had a 'feeling' that something was seriously wrong with my health. We (my family) all have had experiences with ESP.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Read about it, believed it, but never expected to experience it.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I knew it was real but I was sort of confused. I didn't see the tunnel/bright light but I knew it was appropriate that I was trying to catch up with those angels. But as I read up even more about NDE's, I never saw similar reports, making me wonder how I could feel it was real even though no one else had ever experienced it like I did.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I know it really happened. I have a good imagination, but not that good. I feel weird that I wanted to fly with angels, but I know I was trying to take my place with them. What exactly that 'place' is, I'm not sure. And the things I've experienced in my life since then, convinces me even more that I wasn't done down here yet. I am currently raising my two granddaughters, four and five years old. The four year old has cerebral palsy and the five year old has emotional problems.
Shortly after that incident, I bought a house that had black mold throughout. I have never smoked but now have asthma, emphysema, and allergies. I have told many people about my house, only to find people who learned of it had life changing experiences of their own because of the knowledge I had passed on to them.
One man I worked with (and his wife) had been alcoholics for twenty years. He was in my office one afternoon and I told him about my house and how there were studies that showed that Sudden Infant Death could be a direct result of mold exposure. The man yelled at me, 'Brenda, you don't know what you just did for me!' With tears running down his face, he told me of how he and his wife had had a three week old son die twenty years before. He sobbed, 'We didn't kill our baby!' I was shocked and told him of course he didn't. He jumped out of the chair and started for the door. I asked where he was going and he said home to tell his wife that they didn't kill their baby.
Three days later, he was moving through the hallway and passed by my office. For the first time in twelve years, I saw that man smiling, his blue eyes twinkling. No more alcohol. So many people seem to have benefited from hearing about my house. So many things have happened since to make me know that's why I had to come back.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No