I was sixteen at the time. I went to a party for New Year's Eve. My friends had rented a motel room. I drank a lot of beer, vodka and gin. I passed out in a corner of the room. Someone called the police and they came to break up the party. Everyone there ran away and the only person the police found was me, unconscious in the corner. They could not wake me, so they called an ambulance. They found my ID and called my parents who met me at the hospital. I was in the hospital for two days and nights detoxing. The doctors told me that I was very lucky to survive.
During the time I was unconscious, I found myself without a body in the middle of black, misty darkness. The darkness was infinite like space. The blackness was of a color that I had never seen. It had a density, but also clarity. I could see in all directions and move at any speed in any direction. I was hovering in the middle of space without a body. Even though I didn't have a body, I could see as if I had eyes. I didn't need to breathe. I felt perfect peace, love and happiness. In the distance, I saw a big light - the size of a door. I didn't go to the light because I didn't feel the need to go to it. I didn't feel the presence of other beings.
I awoke in the hospital and felt the weight of my body, as if I was held down. I felt awful. I left a place of no pain and entered a body of pain. Before the experience, I didn't know if there was an afterlife. After the experience, I knew there is an afterlife. Looking back on the experience, I could have stayed there forever.
Date NDE Occurred: 12/31/2004
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Alcohol poisoning 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' . Passed out due to intoxication, ambulance called, in hospital for two days.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I felt more aware alive and aware in the blackness than in my daily life.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was in space out of my body. It felt more real than life itself.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning No sense of time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Perfect vision.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Did not hear anything.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Saw a door of light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No ...just black, endless space
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Pure love, joy and peace - no pain. It felt like home.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist none(but was raised Mormon)
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I believe in a higher power. I have stronger desire to do good.
What is your religion now? Liberal 'none, but believe in God'
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believe in a higher power. I have stronger desire to do good.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I can talk to people easier.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Felt feelings I never felt before.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Started to see spirit beings.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Just being there was significant.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I immediately told my parents about it when I awoke in the hospital.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes They were different from my experience.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Was very real to me, as real today (two years later) as it was then.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.