I was surrounded by darkness. I was confused and a little scared, wondering where I could possibly be. It wasn't the apartment block I was in before. I knew in my heart I was somewhere far away from Earth, but wasn't sure how I got there. This place was out of the Milky Way, possibly the edge of the universe, maybe outside of it. A small white light appeared, and as I moved closer towards it, I was overcome with warmth, happiness and tranquility. There was a female voice (I believe it might have been the voice of God or Mother Nature) telling me it would be okay if I went towards it, but that I was free to walk away if I wanted, and that I would have a second chance. In that moment, I knew it wasn't my time. I pulled myself away from the beautiful light and comforting voice, and awoke with a jump. There I was, in the back of the ambulance, and I had awoken after going into cardiac arrest.
Date NDE Occurred: 22/3/2013
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Drug or medication overdose. Life threatening event, but not clinical death
Cardiac arrest from drug overdose.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the whole thing, I felt more conscious than I ever had in my waking life. I realized that life down here has little meaning and the important stuff happens after we leave this realm. I looked into the eye of the universe and it looked back at me. I saw matter, antimatter and the fundamental forces working in unity. The laws of quantum physics and individual atoms laid themselves out in front of me.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time did not exist in this place.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see clearer than ever, individual atoms interacting with each other and the laws of physics working together.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear a loud ringing but it was peaceful, as well as the calm female voice (God) and many other very quiet voices all around, as if I were listening to a thousand things at once.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place The edge of the universe.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Awe, peace, tranquility, happiness, calmness.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Life on earth has no meaning. When we die we become part of the matter of the universe and ascend into a higher state of consciousness.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Slightly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me
What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Confirmed existence of God
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin Calm female voice. The voice of God or Mother Nature.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes We are part of the universe, and it is part of us
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably does not exist
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes God is the being that is there to reassure us when we die and explain what is.happening and that we have a higher purpose than our life on earth
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Life on earth has no purpose
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife does not exist
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes We become part of the universe - matter, fundamental forces, laws of quantum physics
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are not meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes God loves us all infinitely
Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Not to be scared of the afterlife.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes The day after. They could not relate.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I knew it was real, straight after I woke up.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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