Experience Description

I saw a field of flowers which were unlike anything I had ever seen before. There were mountains in the background. It was an untouched, unspoiled landscape. The field seemed endless. I was floating above it. I felt I was to progress to the end of the field, I didn't look behind me. I didn't look far ahead either. It suddenly hit me what was happening and I refused to be there. If I want one thing in life, it is to raise my children to adulthood and I had yet to do that. This realization hit like a ton of bricks and I jolted back into consciousness. I never lost consciousness again after that and was a lot more alert even though my physical situation was no better and deteriorating. Determination I guess... The picture I have in my head of the whole experience is like a snapshot in my head. I wasn't there long and at that point no one around me realized what I'd experienced.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 2/2/04

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Childbirth Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain It felt that way but I didn't see myself lying there or watch myself from above during the experience. While I felt I was floating above the flowers I wasn't aware of any form or body.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Passing in and out of consciousness. I was told I was in an incredibly good state for the amount of blood I'd lost.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I had no sense of time at all (even when conscious).

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Darkness

Did you see an unearthly light? No

The experience included: A landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The field and mountains as described above.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will It was as if I suddenly placed what was happening and decided there was no way I was going there. I wanted to go back for my family and children.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Catholic

What is your religion now? Liberal Catholic

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Has reinforced to me what is most precious in life. Although I already had this value, it has just strengthened it. I also feel very strongly that most people in the world have life totally out of perspective and wish others could see how unimportant the things that lead to all the politics and battles in the world are.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Actually, come to think of it, for a time afterwards (four weeks or so) I did tend to see auras around things and white forms fleeting past me. The auras were only white or glowing yellowish.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Best - the sense of peace and perspective it has given me. I don't fear death at all in terms of the physical experience. Worst - other people's reactions.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I think my husband (who I took some weeks to talk to about it) was a bit envious. He wanted to know if it had made me more religious (it hasn't). I told my father when he asked as a joke and he made a joke about it (which I didn't think was funny). I told a very religious friend who told me that even if the place seemed peaceful I didn't know if it meant I'd go to heaven or hell because I wasn't there long enough. I guess I should have known better than to tell her. She gets the prize for the stupidest most insensitive comment. Haven't told anyone else yet though might mention it if it came up.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No Never had anything like this before either before or after.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I am not sure if this experience was real or all in my head. However it did definitely happen and I was fully 'there' if that makes any sense.