I remember the ambulance ride and getting to the emergency room and the trip on the elevator. Coming out of the elevator I looked up at the ceiling at a reflection of myself and I was smiling I thought it was odd. I remember feeling very tired and wanting to go to sleep. Then I remember feeling like I was dreaming, but it didn't look like a normal dream. It was all black and white, grey, and blurry. I was in what seemed to be a school hallway with just people moving every which way like a crowded subway station in front of me. To the left was an archway that was the bright part of the scene. To the right and behind me I could feel the darkness. I remember hearing two real loud buzzing sounds like an alarm. I remember thinking to myself there was something I was doing that was important and I shouldn't be sleeping. I opened my eyes to see a bunch of doctors all around and telling them I was sorry and I was trying to stay awake. That is when the doctor told me I died and they had to shock me twice.
Date NDE Occurred: 4-4-09
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Heart attack Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I had a massive heart attack.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness After.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? After.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The dream was kind of dark and hazy no color.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It sounded like a loud crowded subway.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes It looked like shadows or silhouettes rushing to get somewhere and I was trying to get them to follow me.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Relaxed like I just woke up from a deep sleep but still felt tired.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain I felt like I was directing traffic in the hallway or trying to get people to go into the darkness.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I thought I was asleep and having a strange dream.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? No.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It took a few weeks of thinking about it before I really said anything to anyone I didn't want them to think I lost it.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain Just something I would have seen on TV in the past.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real I'm still wondering if I indeed had a NDE.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real Still not sure. Read some stories on this site didn't find any that I think are anything like mine - so I decided to let someone who knows something on the subject decide.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? None.