I was eight years old as I was walking through the streets of Breda one day after New Year's Day. We were on a visit there. Just like every other child, I loved fireworks and that day I picked up a big illegal firecracker from the ground. This firecracker was designed to explode quickly but I didn't know that. I lit it and suddenly I was in a rotating tunnel (a kind of cloud) and inside the tunnel, there were billions of small lights. I looked around, I was surprised and had no idea what was happening. I heard beautiful music that resembled classical music. I remember (like it happened yesterday) the feeling I had: peaceful, quiet, without worries. At the end of the tunnel was a large light, which looked like the sun, but this light I could look into. I remember saying (telepathic words not by word of mouth): 'Wow it is beautiful here. Where am I?' Suddenly with the speed of lightning, I was back in my body. My ears sang and slowly my vision came back. I cried and looked at my hand. And miracle of miracles all I saw was a little blood, I hadn't lost a finger. I think that while I was in the tunnel of return (that's how I call it) God or an Angel protected my body and my hand.
I told my mother and said, 'Mom I was with Zoti (God in Albanian).' But she told me I had imagined it. Often I recollected the event, I had an image of God and I understood things better than other children.
But when I was about eighteen years old and I lost myself in religious matters I was depressed for three years. The dogmas of Islam and Christianity frightened me. I didn't know what to do and almost lost my mind. When I saw a broadcast about NDEs, I thought, 'Hey that's what happened to me.' Ever since I lost myself in NDE matters and that gives me tranquility and peace. In this I recognize the true God and His nature.
Date NDE Occurred: 1993
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Accident Other Na een vuurwerkexplosie van een gevonden illegaal vuurwerk.
I don't know if an illegal fire cracker can be life threatening. I knew I could lose a finger but die? Thank God I was alright!
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I saw many lights I had never seen before and the bright 'supreme' light at the end of the tunnel. Here you can't look into the sun but over there you can.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes A tunnel that rotated with billions of small lights and music.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I don't remember seeing any other beings or someone speaking to me, unfortunately my NDE didn't last very long.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The 'supreme' light at the end resembled the sun but you could look into it and that was a warming and good feeling.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm De tunnel zelf was al verbazingwekkend genoeg!
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy, amazement, peace, tranquility, reality, satisfaction, Divine proximity and wisdom.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Eerst was ik meer religie gelovig. Maar sinds een depressie ben ik me meer in de BDE's gaan verdiepen. Als het mij niet was overkomen had ik het nooit geloofd en was ik wellicht nog steeds depressief en twijfelachtig.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I've abandoned Islam and religion in general and I focus more on life itself and God. You don't need anyone else to have a relationship with God. By nature, man needs God. In difficult times, man calls upon God even atheists. I know for sure and I've experienced it! The reason people turn against God is that they don't want to commit to the insanity of certain religions.
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I've abandoned Islam and religion in general and I focus more on life itself and God. You don't need anyone else to have a relationship with God. By nature, man needs God. In difficult times, man calls upon God even atheists. I know for sure and I've experienced it! The reason people turn against God is that they don't want to commit to the insanity of certain religions.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes At that moment it seemed I knew everything and nothing. It's hard to describe.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain I don't know, I've always been different.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No At that moment I didn't know what was happening. When I came back I told my mother spontaneously that I had been with Zoti (God in Albanian) but she said I had imagined that.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I often know what people are thinking and why they do what they do. I know who is lying and cheating or who is honest. At school, I don't have to study much because I get it right away. I often think other people are slow-witted and don't see the entire picture. I still have bad traits and one of them is that I look down upon people who don't understand something.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Now that I know it isn't strange to have had an NDE I have told a lot of people. Many don't say a thing but think I'm weird. My cousin had an angel experience about two weeks after I told him about my NDE. He said: 'Granit I thought you were crazy but now I know better!'
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real The tranquility and peace. It is sometimes difficult for me to live in this world, which I love very much. Religion destroyed me but the NDE helps me to beat the dogmas and tenets.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real You have to experience it yourself. You can't explain it to others. Some scientists call it hallucinations. But isn't it a funny coincidence that everyone who had a NDE had similar hallucinations? Also things happen during your NDE you can't make up, like the tunnel. Not one religion speaks of a tunnel to paradise.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No