I found myself outside my body. Unlike previous out-of-body 'dreams' where I had a body and could 'swim' through the air, this time there was no 'body'. There was only my awareness or presence, if you will, with a view of the room from near the ceiling. I wasn't directly over the gurney and could see the backs of the doctors and nurses on my side of the gurney. My view of the gurney was mostly blocked by their backs. The overhead light fixture in the room blocked my view of the people on the other side of me.
I was fully aware that was my body on the gurney; however, there was a 'lack of concern' on my part (not to mention a total lack of the pain and discomfort I was in before I began my experience) and soon lost interest on what was happening to my body. I looked around behind me, saw the cupboards on the wall, and read some of the labels on the doors describing the contents behind the doors. They were Dymo-labels popular back then. The cupboards and room dissolved away to blackness with a bright light in what would have been the corner in the back of the cupboard. It began to increase in size as though I was moving closer to it, however before the light took over I found myself back in my body.
Date NDE Occurred: October 1989
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I was on a hospital gurney with four people surrounding me, two on a side. One person was barking orders, one was calling out stats. They started to intubate me through my mouth when I heard someone say 'He's going into . . .' The rest of the sentence was unintelligible. Then some more orders barked, then I heard someone say, 'Bag him.' Then a mask was placed over my face. Not sure how long it all lasted but that's the last thing I remember before my experience started.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness Consistent through out the experience.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Consistent through out the experience.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Altered space yes, the room had disappeared.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No sound at all. As though I was deaf. Just my thoughts.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain When the room faded away and the light appeared I remember thinking it's a tunnel, although afterwards days later I wasn't sure it was a tunnel or just a growing light.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A small point of light appeared and grew in size. The sensation was like walking down a dark tunnel towards the opening at the end. As you get closer the light grows in size. Either a tunnel or the light was just getting larger relative to me.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Jewish
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal Jewish
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain My relationships have changed although not as a direct result of the experience, but more because the experience changed me.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It took me several months before I mentioned it to anyone. I spent most of that time deciding what it was I experienced and how it fits my beliefs. It seems that people generally accept what I tell them sometimes with a bit of skepticism. Sometimes they'll ask if what I believe I experienced was proof of life after death.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Only what has been discussed in general in the media.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably not real I had always felt that there is a scientific explanation for these experiences and while I experienced it for myself it was still inconclusive as to whether it is real or not. Consider that I was awake (although under a lot of discomfort and distress) and my sub-conscious took notice of the room before I 'blacked out'.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably not real Pretty much the same.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No