Around the age of 15 my friends and I were experimenting with different drugs: pot, nitrous, LSD, mushrooms and alcohol. In this event that happened to me, a friend and I were sitting on his bed and inhaling nitrous oxide from a balloon. (Whatever you do, never do this, I could have easily died). When I inhaled the nitrous, I felt the effects of it immediately.
It was as if my mind was about 3 feet away from my body, upwards and forward in the front of myself. I instantly knew how all my current decisions were affecting the people in my life and how everyone viewed me. It wasn't pretty. My drug abuse and how I was treating the family was very selfish. It made people view me in a certain light. The experience out of body only lasted about 5 seconds if that much. It was almost like an all-knowing, but not of the entire universe or anything, only what I needed at the time. The experience made me really think about what I was doing to myself; and how what I said and did, really did affect the others in my life. Not just me.
I was back in my body after that happened and my friend said 'dude, your lips are purple'. I do not think that either one of us, knew how close to leaving this physical world I actually came. I didn't say anything to my friend about what just happened, because I wasn't sure what happened myself. It took me years to grasp that what had happened as a life changing experience. I write this for you to read, so hopefully people will not make my mistake; and possibly learn that what we do in life, how we act, say, do, radiates all around us. Life is a very short journey that for some: isn't understood in time. I hope this can help others try to treat others with kindness and love, because we really don't know how other people feel, or what they have been through that makes them the way they are.
Date NDE Occurred: 1997
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Drug or medication overdose 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
I overdosed myself on nitrous oxide.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal It was an instant soberness from my drug induced state. Instant clarity of how my actions were affecting others.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When my mind exited my skull.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It happened so fast that I didn't have time like some NDE or OBEs.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Too fast to realize hearing.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? None, it was so fast. It was almost like the only reason for it was to teach me about myself.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? No
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated Raised in a non-religious family, but taught that we should treat others how we would want to be treated. Taught that racsism is a nasty thing.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I never was religious. I feel fortunate to not have religion shoved down my throat at a young age. My parents let me make decisions on my own and gave me the freedom to 'free-think' for myself. What has changed is: I haven't changed in a long time.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me
What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I didn't think of these things before, I was young. Young people aren't really supposed to contemplate death or where we go afterward. As I got older is when I started looking into why I exist and where I will go afterward. I look into the night sky with amazement at what I see.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? Unknown
Do you fear death after your experience? Unknown
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. I have taught myself that what I wanted to be in this life is a person who others can trust and depend on to help them. I enjoy material possessions for what they are, they do not define who I am, nor will they change me into someone I do not want to be. In the end all we will have is who we loved and how we treated others.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes I do not waste time trying to change anyone, if they see good things in someone that they like, and they want to be like that, it is up to them to take the steps to be who they want to be.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I tend to have vivid dreams that have answered questions for me. I recently had a dream (I will spare the details) but I asked a woman if life was eternal. She said 'no'. I had a very disappointed look on my face and then she said 'only if you know yourself'. Then I woke up.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The event was a part of my life that was shameful because what I was doing to trigger it was not something of which to be proud.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Years went by and I didn't say anything because I really didn't think about it much. It wasn't until, in certain company and the topic was being discussed.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I didn't think about it much, I was young and much too involved with the 'important' things us kids were doing.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I view it as an experience that was 'what I needed': Nothing more or nothing less. It was as if I unlocked a side of me for a few brief seconds that showed me a problem I was creating that would change my life if I didn't stop.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Don't do man-made drugs.