I remember a police officer slapping me across the face, telling me to wake up. I could not keep my eyes open, let alone move. Then I was moving down a hall, which I assumed was part of the hospital's emergency room corridors. I was being pushed by four people. One person was the doctor, and another one I remember saying distinctly, 'Her pupils are dilated.'
I then found myself floating in a void. It was neither dark nor light. It was just nothingness. I was lying on my back, looking up, floating. No thoughts. No Emotions. Within me was complete emptiness; I seemed to be completely free. I have a hard time finding words to describe this experience. For example, I don't know if this sense of weightlessness within would be called a 'feeling' or what. It was just peace. There is nothing in my experience that I could compare to this. I floated into the light and then I found myself standing. Two figures of energy, no form, no outline, came toward me. No sound, no language. One telepathically told me, 'It's not your time', and it stretched a part of itself out to a point where there was a tunnel. This tunnel was amazing. It was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. It was alive. It was energy, and its color was bright blue! A living framework, geometrically perfect lines, synchronized, moving lines that spun inside each other. So beautiful! I zipped through it and ended up in the void again, where I found myself staring through a square-shaped hole. I was staring at myself while the doctor and nurses were trying to revive me. I was pulled back into my body, and began to hear everyone around me. I was looking at them, even though my eyes were closed. I could not move or speak. Soon all the pain of a dying body came rushing into me. I sat up, screaming at the doctor, 'Why did you bring me back?' Then I passed out. When I awoke, a psychologist was sitting at my bedside.
Date NDE Occurred: Uncertain Year
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Excessive Alcohol consumption. Alcohol Poisoning Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I had been drinking a lot of alcohol – too much, in fact. It killed me.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal In the void.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? In the void.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
No Space and No Time existed.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes A beautiful, amazing tunnel of energy and light; moving and twisting inside.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes They were in front of me. I did not know them. I don't know if they were beings. More like figures of energy and light. One told me it was not my time.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Just light, nothing profound. It seemed to emanate from a source not too far away.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm the Void.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I don't like to call what I experienced 'emotion'. My body seemed to be free from all emotion. The word I would choose would be 'bliss'.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes When I arrived at the light, it reminded me of a crossroads, a gateway.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist 'None'
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist 'None'
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Nothing can be compared to it.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes There are times I hear people who are far away from where I am. I am very sensitive to the emotions of others. For a time, I was able to see the energy, the life force of all things connected to one another, a continuously flowing energy, passing from a flower to a pencil to the sunglasses on my head.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? In the void, where I was stripped of all my human suffering. During that time, I was aware that there is no need for human suffering.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it with my grandmother soon after. She said that God was with me, and that I had been in Heaven, but that I should not have been there, because I had not been baptized and I had not received Jesus Christ into my life. No - not influenced.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I knew that the experience was 'definitely real' right away. People seemed to stop and stare at me whenever I paused to stare at the connectedness of energy being shared throughout everything.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still see the experience as 'definitely real.' And to this day, I do not feel complete as a human being. I feel that I left something behind. I don't feel grounded here.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No