Born to an unmarried mother, she left me in care of my grandparents. They loved me, but she didn't. Grandfather had died. I missed him. I remained with grandmother. We became very poor.
Some time later, I fell sick and lay in bed. I was almost unconscious. In the afternoon, suddenly my body levitated out of bed and went painfully through a narrow channel on the top left corner of grandmother's bedroom. I reached a place where words escape me to describe. There was strong light, like if I were bathing in sun rays and a physical well being. If you pardon my example, like an orgasmic feeling of every cell in my body.
But suddenly I fell back in bed, almost roughly, as I felt rejected. I jumped and jumped up on the mattress, trying to go back were I just came from. No success. Tired with my efforts, I ran out of bed to the kitchen where grandmother was surprised to see me up. She was explaining to a neighbor that the doctor said I wouldn't survive the fever. I ate a good meal and ran out to play with my friends. Grandmother couldn't believe I was cured.
I never mentioned this experience to anybody, until in my fifties. I read the same thing happened to others.
Date NDE Occurred: 1938
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Illness. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening
My grandfather had just died. I caught a bad flu. Maybe subconsciously I wanted to rejoin grandfather, but I am not sure. It is my adult interpretation.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain. I was 7 or 8 years old. I do not remember if I heard grandmother say to the neighbor that I was dying when I was 'up in heaven' or later when I joined her in the kitchen after coming back. I felt pain going through this narrow 'bowel', then my body somehow sensed the experience.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I’VE NEVER experienced anything near this feeling again.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning.
I cannot say how long it lasted, but long enough to remain in my memory as unforgettable
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Before the experience I was unconscious
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I cannot remember any noise during the experience, except perhaps the one the bed made when I was 'rejected.' But this last detail might be imaginary.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I passed through the tunnel twice; in and out back to bed. Each time feeling myself squeezing through it
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was like I was surrounded by the sun. There was no heat, but it was the brightest light possible.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. Never have I experienced anything close to this
in my 85 years.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was highly elated.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic. Brought up by a Protestant grandfather and a Catholic grandmother
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain. I was seven or eight at the time. Later in my life, I felt somehow fascinated by religious people, and a compulsion and necessity to not to elude church frequentation. But it might be superstition, I don't know.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Sometimes I feel I can see through people, but that might be my imagination.
What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic Irregularly practicing Catholic
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. At 8 years old I had few beliefs. I thought I was in heaven. Then back to earth, and very disappointed.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes When I pray, I often mentally refer to that light, asking 'its' protection for my loved ones and myself, as if it were God. Maybe it is. Could God be a powerful supernatural light?
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably exists
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? Unknown
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? I greatly feared death
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I do not fear death
Do you fear death after your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Unknown
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
Were you compassionate after your experience? Unknown
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Yes sometimes I feel I can see through people, but that might be preposterous
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Sometimes I feel 'things' that my environment doesn't feel. I rather guess some details that often prove right, but not always.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It is surnatural
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. It was unforgettable. The experience was so strange and unexpected that I dared not mention it to anyone until I read that I wasn't the only one. It was unforgettable. So strange and unexpected that I dared not mention it to anyone until I read I wasn't the only one.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I feel like or dislike to certain persons, without any logical reasons, but maybe everybody is like that. And I also feel 'protected' against evil, in some way, but this might be wishful thinking.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? My body felt the physical experience of sensing pain going through this narrow channel.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes decades later, when I read in a magazine someone disclosed the same story, I then disclosed it to my family.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Immediately after, I tried so hard to jump to the ceiling, levitate and repeat the experience. Since I was a child, I did not think of the experience for years until I read that I wasn't the only one. I could never FORGET the light and the feeling of elation that I had felt.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It was so stunning. I can NEVER forget something like what happened. It is strong and strange and wonderful.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I sometimes think I bring luck to people that I like and don't dislike me.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? How could my soul have escaped my body, when I sensed the levitation and the discomfort passing through the narrow channel, like a baby's body coming out of its mother's? Or does the soul has same feelings as human bodies?
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