I was twelve years old and on a vacation with my family. It was at the height of the summer and very hot. We were visiting my grandparents on my father's side who lived in a village in the Middle East. I was bareheaded out in the fields in blazing sun. My family and other relatives were preparing for a picnic. We were having a barbeque. But I was awful tired and just wanted to rest all the time, and I was feeling so cold. My father told me to stop being so mawkish and behave. He didn't realize how sick I actually was. Finally, one of the adults persuaded my father to send me home. It wasn't that far from home, about half a kilometer, but I was feeling so bad at that time and hardly remember how I got home. There were my uncle and his wife. They wondered why I came home. I told them that I was so very cold and wanted to lie down.
The last thing I remember when I still was awake was that several blankets were put on me because of the shivers I had.
Until this very day, I remember the meeting with the incredibly kind figure who wore a long cloak or mantle. I think it was a male figure, maybe an angel, but without visible wings. I clearly remember the question he asked me, 'Are you ready to cross over?' I knew somehow that there wasn't any return if I did that. I almost felt embarrassed and ungrateful to the friendly figure when I said, 'Mom and dad need me, besides we will go back to Sweden in a few days.' I don't remember if I said that in words or by telepathy. Immediately after that, I woke up. My grandmother was trying to lower the fever by using large rhubarb-looking leaves on my bare body.
Six months after this experience there was buzzing in my ears.
Eight years later, due to my education, I came in touch with the book 'Life After Life' by Raymond Moody. I can guarantee that the book gave me shivers of recognition. Finally, I realized that I had had an NDE. Unfortunately I can't remember any tunnel. Just the light that was out of this world, and the meeting with the figure (or angel).
Date NDE Occurred: 1972
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Illness Other solsting
I was unconscious and had a very high fever. Before that, I had a powerful shiver. I have never been that cold despite the heat of 40 Celsius in the shadow (in July).
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal When I met the human-like being in the light.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I met the human-like being in the light.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I had no sense of time and space.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything was 'crystal clear'.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I can't recall any kind of sound.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain It's possible but I can't remember.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I have already described that.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes There are no words to describe that. I just can't find any words.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm minns ej
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? A harmony that I never felt before or after the NDE.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I can't remember.
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain My concern for my parents made me not to cross the limit (even if I had wanted to).
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I fully believe in ONE Maker. Death is given to us fairly, that truth no one can deny. But what's to happen after that no one knows, and it's not meant for us to know either. There's a limit which science is not allowed to cross (luckily, man would only misuse it as with everything else). But the holy Koran actually talks about different dimensions and boundaries that separate the dead from the non-dead. My NDE has made me to a Seeker.
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I fully believe in ONE Maker. Death is given to us fairly, that truth no one can deny. But what's to happen after that no one knows, and it's not meant for us to know either. There's a limit which science is not allowed to cross (luckily, man would only misuse it as with everything else). But the holy Koran actually talks about different dimensions and boundaries that separate the dead from the non-dead. My NDE has made me to a Seeker.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain I can't remember.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain I experience that people see me as a 'dreamer'; they don't understand, don't want to understand. I often feel misunderstood. They will never understand until they themselves stand there!
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No Hard to put in words something that powerful.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Humility, empathy, love and respect for all the creation of God. From the smallest to the biggest.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I will never forget the feeling of harmony due to the event, either now or then.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Eight years later when I recognized myself in Raymond Moody's book 'Life After Life'.
I was only twelve when I had the experience and nineteen when I told others. I felt that I wasn't taken seriously. I have never really met any understanding. I just think to myself, 'You just wait until the day comes when you're standing there yourself.'
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No I was only twelve at the time.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Because I was only twelve at the time I can't recall if I thought of it as real or not. I only remember that the experience was very real just when I had it.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I have never had a dream or something similar that surpass this experience, and I often dream at nights.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain I have had an OBE (Out-of-Body Experience) on the verge of sleep and wakefulness, but that's not the same.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Love for the Maker and respect for the creation is the only thing that can save us all from destruction - that is what I have learned from my NDE.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I'm satisfied with the questions that were in the questionnaire.