It was Friday, October 9th. It was already 10:00 pm when I started experiencing my asthma attack. I thought it was one of my attacks that could be prevented with self-medications so when my husband asked me if I am okay I said yes. It was in the dawn of October 10 when I started to feel a lot different from the usual attacks. I could no longer breathe so I tried to wake my husband and ask for his help. When he saw me, he said that he was going to take me to the hospital and I said yes. During the trip to the hospital, I'm starting to lose my consciousness because the trip seemed to take only seconds. When we arrived at the hospital, the only thing I can remember is that I walked a few steps and then collapsed.
All I can recall at that moment was that I was lying in an empty space; everything seemed to be dark except the constant flashes of tiny white lights that connected each other. Every flash connects to the next light. As it goes to the next light, I saw an experience. I know the moment that I am going to die. It's really a strange feeling because we always fear death but when you experience it, there is this feeling of compete surrender, a kind of peace. I even forgot the people who will be left sad when I am gone. Before I woke up or become conscious again, the flashes of light stopped. Then I saw a man standing waiting and say, 'Do you want to go back?' I said I am tired of breathing. He waved his hand and I saw a lighted candle and start hearing my husband's voice at my side and the voices of nurses and doctors who were attending to me at that moment. God gave me another life.
Date NDE Occurred: 'Oct. 10,2009'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes asthma attack Other severe asthma attack
Because I collapsed. The only thing I recall was that I was lying in a bed looking at the tiny lights that flash from time to time and everything else is dark and void.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
Did you feel separated from your body? No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness During the time when I saw the lights.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the time when I saw the lights.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Because there were no sound except the sound of beeping as the light flashes and the voice that asked me if I wanted to go back.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain No tunnel but as if I am lying under a dark sky, empty except for the lights.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes He was at the end of the flashing lights. He asked me if I wanted to go back.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Tiny white lights that flash and connect to another light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Giving up, surrendering and peace.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control It was a flash, I saw my husband and other people, but until now, when I want to recall them, they seem blocked - I can't exactly recall it.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist Roman Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist Roman Catholic
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I realize life can be taken from us anytime so it's better to be happy and be contented and always do what is good and right.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? When I was asked if I wanted to come back.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes They just listen and are thankful I am alive.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was a real experience for me and I realize that life is too short so we have to make the best of it.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Because I know it was real - I am lucky I was given another chance to live and share the experience.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No.