After feeling intense pain and deep fear during strangulation, I became aware of 'floating' through a dark (PITCH BLACK, all-encompassing darkness) area that had no limits or boundaries. I passed other floating beings, who seemed to be just kind of in suspension in the darkness, or stuck, if that describes it better. All at once, I seemed to be floating within an intense, pure, joyous white brightness that felt like all good things, the most joyous love and a complete sense of peace and contentment. I felt how my actions in my life affected persons around me, both positively and negatively. I know I was told that I have to do something here, but I don't remember what it is. I know, however, that I will accomplish whatever it is that I'm supposed to do. After being enveloped and loved in the whiteness, I had a conscious thought pierce my experience: I don't want to be a murder victim or statistic. Following that it a feeling similar to being on the fastest, darkest roller coaster ever, and then, boom! I was lying on the carpet, waking up. I knew the instant my eyes opened that I had been changed profoundly, right down to a cellular level.
Date NDE Occurred: 1990
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Criminal attack 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
I was strangled until completely unconscious.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal While in the pure light.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While in the pure light.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I had absolutely ZERO sense of time. I could have been there for hours; or it could have been seconds. I don't know. It felt like an entire lifetime in a nanosecond.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Things that I saw (the light and the darkness, for example) were MUCH more intensified than what one would 'normally' see in every day life.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Intense, inky blackness that led to an all-encompassing light, followed by a brief passage through the darkness again.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain It was more of a feeling, than an observation. I got the impression that I knew some of them, but didn't know others. The ones I did not know felt as if they were powerful, supreme beings of a sort; the ones that I did know felt as if they knew me and loved me.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The purest, whitest, brightest, most intense light. Words cannot even begin to describe this light. The light also came with a 'feeling' of all things good, if that makes sense.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm A dimensional feeling of purity, brightness, love, forgiveness, as well as a heightened sense of a 'mission' that I was supposed to accomplish here before I could go 'home' to the bright light again.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy. Peace. LOVE. Security. Contentment. Well-being. Sorrow for my actions that hurt people. Humble joy in seeing how my actions affected people in a positive way.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I learned how even the smallest of my actions directly affect those around me. It has definitely changed how I live my life. I look handicapped people in the eye and talk to them, for example. I try to do good things quietly, to help others. I now work with handicapped children.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Very difficult to describe. During the experience and still, to this day, there was a profound feeling of knowing that we all have a particular place in the universe, we each are here for a purpose and have a 'job' to do. It also completely cemented my faith.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes My beliefs became much stronger after I received confirmation of God and His presence.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I can't ever seem to recapture the incredible events and feelings that happened to me with mere words.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Definitely. I 'see' things, both good and bad that will happen to those close to me, sometimes months in advance. I have healing knowledge with regard to my animals (rescue animals, usually rescued under duress) that I didn't have beforehand and couldn't possibly know. I seem to heal from personal injuries abnormally quickly.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The entire experience was meaningful and significant on a very profound level. Those effects have continued to drive my life on a daily basis.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes After about ten years, I shared this initially with my mother, whom I knew had had several NDE's. She understood and accepted. She is the one who helped me to understand that during the NDE I was given the gift of knowledge.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Very simply: I KNOW where I was; I KNOW what I saw and I KNOW what I know. No doubts whatsoever, then or now.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Again, I KNOW without question where I was, what happened and how it changed me.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No