I was sleeping in my room which was on the bottom floor of my parent's home. I woke up because there was something over my face, I started fighting, something or someone was on my chest and started punching me in the face, chest and I was terrified, I knew I was going to die, I couldn't scream, couldn't breathe, right before I lost consciousness I smelled something strange, very strange. After that, I was on a lake in a row boat, I could see myself in the boat, I felt very calm, wasn't thinking about anything, just looking. It was very dark, but I could see the silhouette of purple on mountains when I looked to the side, it was beautiful and looked like the sun would rise very soon. The lake was very still, I wasn't afraid, then I heard my mother and daughter's voice, but my daughter who was only approximately two at the time, well, it was the sound of her voice grown up but I knew it was her voice. They called my name and my body moved like through an air current very quickly. It was as if the wind carried me so fast and I saw a bright, bright light very quickly and then a beach. Then I saw my mom and daughter standing on the beach. My daughter was grown up. I came out of the unconsciousness.
The men who had broken into my parent's house were still there, and I was in and out. They went upstairs after my parents, but my dad went after them and they ran out, my brother came into my room. It had to be horrible for him. I was bound, gagged, black, and blue all over, I had been raped, it was pretty bad. They called an ambulance and I was taken to hospital in Newark, the rape crisis unit. I recovered but it was pretty bad, I had panic attacks for many years. I know I did go to the other side a kind of waiting area, and my mom and daughter called me back. Me seeing and hearing my daughter grown up showed me what was most important and gave me a glimpse of the future. My mom is gone, passed away when I was thirty but she gives me strong signs many times in my life that she is there and answers questions of life, I feel that I am strongly connected to my mom. I have dreams sometimes of people that passed on that tell me things or show me things in the future.
Date NDE Occurred: approx. 1975
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Criminal attack Life threatening event, but not clinical death I believe I did stop breathing and was dead for a few minutes.. Gagged, beaten and raped.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal It seemed like every moment was me seeing.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the whole time I was unconscious.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? I noticed everything to the moment.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I only heard sound when my mom and daughter called to me and they were the catalyst for me being moved to the light and beach.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes When I was being pulled back to the beach and light.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes But it was when I was being pulled back to life.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm the lake and the beautiful mountains.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? No emotions at all, just noticed everything every moment.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future YES, I saw what the future held, in hearing and seeing my daughter grown up and in seeing my mom and daughter I realized how much they loved me, they drew me back to life.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal I was mad at God, things had happened in my young life and I blamed God. I was very suicidal prior to the break in at my house.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I don't believe in church, but I believe strongly in God, and I do a lot of research and reading on religion, spiritualism, philosophy.
What is your religion now? Liberal heavy into spirituality, I research all faiths and beliefs
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I don't believe in church, but I believe strongly in God, and I do a lot of research and reading on religion, spiritualism, philosophy.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain No, but I view life much differently.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes People in family that have passed away come in dreams sometimes, and tell me future events. I am very, very intuitive now and can tell people's future by tarot cards. I also see how the world works much easier, part of intuition. I can also tell characters of people by looking at their eyes.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The lake and mountains were peace; the purple on the mountains told me the sun would be rising soon. I believe if I was there when the sun rose, I would be staying. I believe that now. I was very suicidal before this terrible event because of things that had happened and later I realized how precious life was and how important my child and mom were, I needed to be here. Now I see life as such a special gift, but it took many years for all of this to set in.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I tell many people about the experience, about how there is life after death.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I knew that I was in the place you waited before it was decided if you would stay or come back here. I still remember everything I saw when I was there, I never forget one detail.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I can still remember every single detail of when I was there.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I have had such a strong connection to my mom since she passed away, and I would have to say that many things, signs have occurred and I believe it's because I breached the curtain and I am still somewhat connected to the after place.