I was having my third surgery in nine months due to a tractor accident when something went terribly wrong during surgery. I remember that day like it was yesterday and that was twenty-six years ago. I can remember the doctors and nurses that day becoming panicky and someone calling for a crash cart while they worked on me.
I never felt any pain as I floated out of my body I flipped over on my stomach and watched for a while. Then I noticed this rotating hole in the wall like a tunnel with the most beautiful blue and whitest light that offered so much peace that I followed the white light down the blue crystal tunnel. I entered into the most peaceful green valley surrounded by trees on both sides with the morning dew and fog still present the vegetation was so lush and the air was of an angelic, almost dreamy-like pleasure to breathe, it was effortless.
Then my grandfather met me. I was so happy to see him! He had already died, but he was as real when he was alive. I am still in shock today but it is and still is wonderful to dream and remember the experience. My grandfather was wearing a long white robe that almost glowed or was illuminated with the whitest white you could believe. There were a lot of other men and women wearing the same robes and they were talking to people. Some had street clothes on and some had something like a spirit-like cloaking that was also beautiful. While we talked and walked in this beautiful valley, he told me that I could not stay and this was my preview of what was to come, that he loved me very much, and that my time was up. Then I returned through the tunnel being led by the light. I re-entered the operating room and re-entered my body.
I awoke in my hospital room full of people doctors, nurses, parents, chaplain, and anesthesia team asking me how I felt. All I wanted to do was sleep and try and re-connect but it wasn't going to happen for the next four months - it was like I was in a daze with reality and just couldn't get going again, what was plaguing me was real.
Date NDE Occurred: 1959/1984 (January)
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Accident. Surgery-related Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) Hit by car at 3. Died during surgery at 27
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal During my out of body experience.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During my out of body experience.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It felt that time no longer had an existence.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The colors and smells are not reproducible to this day or of this world that we now. The Heaven that awaits us and its beauty are overflowing it cannot be perceived in this lifetime but in the next life.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear whispers, birds, an abundance of life was overflowing with the noise of beauty.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes The most beautiful tunnel that rotated from both directions it was like the most beautiful blue crystal with white light in the middle that was alive, it moved and I followed it through to the valley.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Like I said I wasn't alone with my grandfather there were others some with street clothes and some with a pre-cloaking of something that was not of this world.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Again it was beautiful light that gave me comfort and love that was warming.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm the valley that the tunnel led me to is not of this world and is almost undescribeable it was stunning
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I have never been so happy and free of pain. It was like I had been given a second chance at life and my body was re-born.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future It used to scare me to much knowledge not knowing what to do with it.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Christian
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate Baptist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes After the experience life is no longer the same, you bring it with, and you can't get it till you go.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I look at life with purpose and love of life, all life animal, earth, and its people.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I could not understand why I was sent back to this imperfect world from such a wonderful and beautiful place after being greeted by my deceased grandfather. He told me that I had to go back and raise my children and that it wasn't my time to stay. I didn't talk about it for a long time and I look daily for my presence to make a difference in this world.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have had some visions, one was so lifelike I could smell the angels and feel the air off their wings and it is as if it is in 4-D - the colors are not of this world.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? No I don't remember anything.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I tried to and received negative responses so I quit talking to and about it.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I don't remember. I was run over by a drunk attorney and knocked over a seventy feet and left in the road at three years old. My mother heard it and screamed when she saw me not moving this was my first encounter with death.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I could not understand why I was sent back and only given a preview, I was sad and wanted to return to the afterlife.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It is the most comforting thing that I think about very day is not being afraid to die.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? The only way to really see this is to have to leave this world or get a preview, it's priceless can't be bought it's earned.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Why me, help me to understand and use this degree in the afterlife to help us all understand and love and embrace this life we have.