My experience happened after the incident. The incident was a serious car crash when my small car was in a head on collision with a delivery truck. We were both driving at forty miles per hour. Later on I was getting ready for work. I looked at my clock and the time was 4:44 AM.Suddenly I was in a room filled with a light that I can only describe as ‘all light’. The light felt as if it had a sentience and there were no shadows. The light also has the most powerful feeling of joy in a way I cannot explain. I felt a presence in The light. I asked the light if I was dead, and remember that I was not sad when I asked. A voice, which was not audible but which I felt, told me that I had many more years left on the earth. I remember feeling intense despair when I asked the light if I had to go back. I have a wife and two small children and I would later have a hard time coming to terms with the fact that despite this I did not want to come back. I then sensed the light smiling. I suddenly and violently woke up and was seated in my car looked at the deflated airbag and glass everywhere. I had a hard time waking up.When I got out of my car, I woke up and looked at my clock and the time was 4:59 AM yet only seemed like I was out for seconds. I later saw a therapist for this, a therapist who is very spiritual and believes in near death experiences. She informed me that the numbers 444 have the very powerful meaning of angels protecting us.
Date NDE Occurred: April 2011
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening'
A severe car accident.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Just a tremendous feeling of joy that I have never experienced before.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole time I was in the ‘all light.’
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Vision was same although for some reason the light was not blinding in a physical sense.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything was felt rather than physically heard.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes All-encompassing light. Healing.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm A room full of light.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy in the light. Despair when I had to return.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant My true beliefs as far as faith are Christian, however I am a fervent student of Buddhism.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes Whatever the voice was was God or whatever being people believe is God
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes When I was "told" I had many more years left on the earth the feeling I got and felt was that I still had a purpose but was not told what that purpose was
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes A voice told me I had many more years left on the earth which to me would suggest a sentience beyond human beings
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I felt joy to a point where it could have been complete love
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared with my therapist soon after it occurred. I told my wife weeks after I told my therapist.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had heard about them and read a small amount about them.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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