I was on the table in the emergency room and I asked the doctors if they were giving me anesthesia. They told me no, but to try to stay awake. I suddenly fell back and was fully surrounded by an energy of a white light. I have NEVER seen this color white here on Earth. It did not hurt my eyes to see it. I felt relaxed, with no thoughts of my family or my past. I somehow knew I was in the place I have heard others talk about. I do not know how I knew this. I then heard a male voice ask me 'Frank, do you want to go with me or go back?' Without hesitation, I said 'go back'. I immediately felt the shock of the paddles come in on my right chest and cross to the left. With this, I popped up into a sitting position. The doctor asked if I was ok. I said 'yes'. I then do not remember anything else until 24 hours' later, when I awoke in the ICU. It took 2 days to remove the ventilator. As soon as I could speak, I told my wife and daughter what had happened. I was afraid to sleep after this. I felt as though I would go again and not return. I spoke with a priest in the hospital and my wife about it. I soon realized there was no reason to worry. I realized it did not hurt to die, and when we do we go to a wonderful place that I was privileged to see.
Date NDE Occurred: 'June 13, 2009'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Massive heart attack, coded 3 times.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole time.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. After this I had blurry vision for about 30 days.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear people at a distance as though they were next to me.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I only heard him. I did not see him.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A white I have never seen on Earth. It did not hurt my eyes to see it.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The experence itself was beautiful
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I only seemed to have eyes and ears.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I find that when I have a few moments I say a few prayers. I NEVER did this before. I do thank God that I am alive today. Of course, my doctors had a lot to do with it too!
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist same
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I find that when I have a few moments I say a few prayers. I NEVER did this before. I do thank God that I am alive today. Of course, my doctors had a lot to do with it too!
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Two days, with my wife and daughter.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I have heard people talk about it. It did not affect my experience.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real As much as it was wonderful, I do not want to go back at this time, but I am more ready to go back.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It was a real event.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No