Experience Description

My experience happen when I was around 10 or 11 years old. Now I'm 39, but I just remembered this experiences a few years ago, since I had forgotten it. I was a weak child. I often missed school two or three days a month because of sickness.

On that day of my experience, I fell sick with a fever and sporadic headache. Usually, if the fever continuied for two or three days, my parents would drive me to the doctor. But this was just the first day of my fever. My parents needed to go to work, so they sent me to my grandma's house. My grandma's house is next door to my parent house.

In my grandma's room, it was noon and lunchtime. I woke up, but felt strange. I was floating. When I looked down, I could see myself sleeping in the bed. I felt confused and said in my mind, 'Hey that's me!' Then I felt myself going up. In front of my face is the roof of my grandma's house. I was a second away from hitting the roof, so I covered my head with my hand and close my eyes. Suddenly, I was through the roof and outside and over the house.

Since it was noon, the sun is shining on its peak. It should be so hot since Indonesia is a tropical country. I covered my eyes to avoid the sunlight, but I was not dazzled by the light. I even could see the sun shining in the sk, and it wasn't hot at all. I felt the sunlight was soft on my skin and eyes. I could see people around the house. I saw my parent's helper doing his job repairing vehicles, so I called his name. But he couldn't hear my voice. I yelled his name again, but still he can't hear me. It's so weird. Then I see my school classmates going home from school as she was passing my house. I call her name, but it's the same - she couldn't hear my voice. I felt so confused.

Suddenly, I felt pulled up. I was moving up very fast. I was moving through many, billions and billions a little shiny dots around me. I think they were stars. In a second, I stopped moving. I don't know if it's a place or not, because I don't have any words to describe this. A place always has dimensions such as width and height. But it's not. This was an unlimited place without borders or time.

There are no words to describe what I saw or how I felt because it's beyond what our physical body organ can feel, hear, smell, or touch. Is it a good view there? A colorful view? I can't describe, because it beyond the view. There, it's not a physical life. It's beyond our earthly existence.

Maybe the nearest feeling I can describe it as is the feeling of my soul. It's a very peaceful place and without time limitation, forever, and also without boundaries. But I made one mistake. I was looking backwards for a millisecond and felt so upset. I was looking at the place where I had left. It was a very little dot, very far away down there. Yes, I can see/feel the world I just left. It's like one grain of sand devided by million or billion, like it is microscopic or atomic size. And the place is so far away down there, it's a thousand or a million light years away.

I woke up with my grandma beside me, holding a plate for my lunch. She felt so happy when I woke up. Later, when my mom came home, my grandma told her that she was feeling afraid because she couldn't wake me up. She saw that my sleep was not usual. She couldn't recognize my breath, and my body was cold. My grandma was afraid to touch me, in case something happen where she could be blamed.

When I woke up, I felt so healthy. I didn't feel my fever or headache anymore. I even ran back to my house, feeling so fresh with new energy like I was never sick. But starting from that day, if I got sick, my grandma doesn't want to take care of me anymore. So my mom will take her leave from the office, to care for me if I got sick after that.

This experience is just forgotten for many years, from one day after that happening. Maybe since I was a child, I didn't give enough attention to this until I grew up. I just remembered all that experience a few years ago, part by part until I have a complete imagery right now.

According to the experience, I see that our world is just a very low grade of life. Our physical world is a shape of a raw life. Physical human body is so limited. Our body organ is useful for our physical life, but comparing with the life over there, this is just nothing. Yes, our life is nothing, it just a little dot far, far away. The real life over there is a life for our soul, happiness and peaceful. I even can't describe with a word, because no eyes can see it, no skin can touch it, and no nose can smell it. It is beyond our physical body. There, it is a life without dimension or time and is limitless. It is beyond everything in our earthly life.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: Around 1990/1991

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Yes

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No I don't know

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I think I have a better vision that time

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. A better hearing

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. The eternal life, life without time and without dimension.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt pleasant, peaceful, and extreme happiness.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. I still questioning what are human life-goals. Is it only the test for human soul to enter the real/immortal life?

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. My only mistake was remembering the place I lived before (this world) and suddenly, I was pulled back

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Muslim

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Muslim

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. Well, I was 11 years old. I have knowledge about heaven and hell at that age, but this vision was never taught to me before and nothing like I had felt before.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain I saw that the universe is very small, like a grain of sand in the middle of the ocean, and I was so far away.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I think I have a stronger feeling about something dangerous or who is coming soon.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Something that can't be describe by our physical body organ. It's a soul life, and how to describe a soul life in our physical life?

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No