Experience Description

I was lying on the bed. I thought I was dreaming that I saw a gallery. It was like a tunnel with a beautiful garden that had many flowers. There was a light at the end of the tunnel that grew steadily stronger and stronger.

Alongside this light was my grandfather who had died approximately six or seven months ago. I smiled at him and felt happy to see him. He was smiling as if he felt well (when I had last seen him, he had always been suffering because he had been sick with cancer). I wanted to stay there with him, but as I approached him, telling him how well he looked, he waved goodbye to me, and said, 'I'm fine! But you must go away now, because your time has not arrived yet.' I said to him, 'So I come to you, and we have to say goodbye?' And he said, 'Go, go! They are waiting for you!' After that, I felt sadness.

It ends here because I woke up.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 14/11/2006

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' I was in bed in the hospital after taking a little box full of sedatives. I remember waking up in the hospital and not knowing how I got there.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness As above.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While I was talking with my grandfather. I was talking in his language, as we always talked.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was like being in a tunnel - actually, quite a large tunnel.

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My grandfather.

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes See the first question. Also, the light was somewhat white. But the smile of my grandfather seemed to light up everything all around.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was happy to see my grandpa! So happy, because he was looking so well! But in the end, I was sad, because he didn't want me to stay with him.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Moderate

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The light was extremely strong. It was not really 'white,' but I didn't know what else to call it.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Most important was the fact of seeing my grandfather and that he was fine.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I've been sharing it with others for the last five years.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had read in the newspaper the story of a woman who died after she had woken up in the morgue and the pathology doctor was scared.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definately not real At first I saw the experience as 'definitely not real' - I did not believe in these sorts of things. I thought it was a dream.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real Now I see the experience as 'probably real.' The more time that passes, the more I think it was not 'a dream,' because I remember it very well, and I do not remember other dreams.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No