My daughter had just been born, everything had been very fast. I saw that the physician was giving me a new shot to sew the cut on the vagina that to prevent further tearing. I remember that I told him it was not necessary since anesthesia had just worked for on me for the cut. He didn't listen to me. I felt a big heat rise inside of me, the tongue began to swell and I fell back because it was suffocating me. I didn't see us anymore and the ears whistled.
I said to Mark (a close friend in the operating room), 'I am about to die.' I know what it feels like to faint, before and after. When one faints, nothing happens before and after. This was different. I was out of body, but I was not afraid. I felt an infinite peace. It is difficult to describe, because it was not happiness but harmony, peace, a very beautiful feeling. I went fast, projected into this dark space and headed for a clear, bright light. I was projected toward that light that became brighter and brighter. I thought that there was there the Madonna. I was raised to believe and to be devoted to the Virgin Maria. I thought about the child who had just been born. I thought the little girl just born, I saw my child’s face, but I was too good to stay. I knew that if I had reached the light I would not have been able to return anymore.
Then I thought about my husband and I looked at him, then at me, and then I saw the face of my first-born. I understood that I had to stop and to return for her, she needed me. In that moment, I woke up in the birthing room. I saw a coming and going of physicians, the cardiologist, and all shaken ones and at that time I began to be afraid.
Date NDE Occurred: 21 gennaio 1980
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Allergic reaction cardiac collapse during childbirth, due probably to allergic reaction to an injection of anesthetic; collasso cardiaco durante il parto, dovuto probabilmente a reazione allergica ad un'iniezione per sbaglio in vena di anestetizzanteAccording to the physicians, from the anesthesia there are from 1 to 2 deaths and that I would have been in the norm and not die.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
Did you feel separated from your body? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the NDE, I did not see the faces of my relatives.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Space and time non measurable.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes The dark space described above was like a large tunnel.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Clear unbagliore but that could be seen with the clear light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Deep peace
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will Then I saw the face of my first-born. I understood that I had to stop and to return for her, she needed me. In that moment, I woke up in the birthing room. I saw a coming and going of physicians, the cardiologist, and all shaken ones and at that time I have begun to be afraid.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Difficult to explain with words about the perceptions and the feeling of peace that don't have relationship with our world. It seems to me that the words; reduce the experience because they are unable to correctly express the experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? To have tried that state of deep peace that I don't know if I will still succeed in trying here. To know that death is beautiful and is difficult to detach from that knowledge.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Someone has given me some mitomane. I have told him a little. It is not easy
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No