Experience Description

I was lifted and surrounded by marshmallow-soft LOVE. No words can describe the perfect happiness and security of that palpable LOVE. The whole atmosphere actually consisted of LOVE. Then I looked down and saw several people whom I did not recognize. They looked up at me and said, 'This is the real world. We're the real people. Stay here.' But I knew I had to go back.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: December 1945

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident 'Automobile crash in snowstorm. WAC driving, car skidded. I was sitting in corner that hit concrete wall. 200 lb. Husband thrown against me on my other side.' Other Pelvis crushed inward. Doctors trying unsuccessfully to pull pubic bone and pelvic arch back into place under sodium pentothal but I was screaming and my husband fainted.. Doctors were unsuccessfully trying to pull my crushed pelvis back into place. I was told that I screamed a terrifying jungle scream that made my husband, who was in the room, faint.

How do you consider the content of your experience?

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness As above.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I felt alert during the whole experience and I recall it now as well as I did right afterward.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning The space was certainly altered.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes They were in an area just below me. I didn't know them. They said, 'We're the real people. This is the real place. Stay here.'

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? No The light was not just light. It WAS LOVE embracing and cuddling and surrounding me.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Just the dimension that's filled with LOVE

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? TOTALLY LOVED, TOTALLY HAPPY AND SECURE.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I learned that there really is a non-physical dimension that's filled with God's love. I already knew that we're spirits because my grandpa visited me after he died when I was ten years old. But I hadn't known about the LOVE that fills the spirit dimension.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate 'Three quarters Jewish and one quarter Lutheran. We celebrated Christmas, Easter, and Passover.'

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Moderate 'I pray a lot to the Creative Intelligence that created the universe and to my Spirit Guide who has helped me in truly miraculous ways after I prayed, ''Use me as an instrument for the Greater Good.'''

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I was embraced in an atmosphere of palpable, marshmallow-soft LOVE. I felt happier, safer, and more secure, beyond anything that could be expressed in words.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my husband. He had thought I was in excruciating pain because I had screamed. I've written about it in my personal memoir.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. My view of it never changed. And during the early 1970s I was watching TV News and heard a soldier say he was in a plane being strafed and terrified but suddenly he saw an angelic figure say he'd be okay and he felt surrounded by 'marshmallow soft love' - the exact same description as my own!!! So I know that love filled dimension exists outside of my own experience.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. As above.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No No substances. But I've had very specific precognitive dreams and some experiences that seem miraculous beyond any possibility of coincidence.