I do not remember going to the hospital or anything that entailed my arrival there. They told me afterwards that I had to be resuscitated and I remained in a coma for three days.
I remember it was dark, pitch black. I am terrified of the dark in life but I had absolutely no fear. It was neither hot nor cold but I was aware of a tingle. I knew I was dead. I knew I had no body. I looked at myself and was there, but not. My son's father was there, he had committed suicide a few years before and at that time, we had been on terrible terms. All I felt from him was absolute love all I felt period was complete love and peace and knowledge like I was full.
He kept telling me to go back, but it was not in words it was like telepathy or something. I kept begging to not but he kept saying I had to I did not belong here, and our son needed me. My son was kidnapped years before and I had not seen him since. I kept saying, 'I wouldn't know him if I saw him'. My ex-husband showed me a visual of him. He did not look like what I remembered. He looked like a perfect mix of his father and I. When he was little he looked exactly like his father, I did not believe him I said that isn't him. He said you will see.
A figure I could not distinguish came towards me he was in a robe. I felt safe though I did not know him.
He guided us toward what seemed to be something out of 'Clash Of the Titans' like a reflecting glass of sorts and pointed towards it, indicating me to watch. What I saw was like my entire life in seconds but I did not have my experiences what I experienced was the people I was dealing with feelings, like my effect on them, how I had made them feel. Kind of like without judgment but I knew how I had hurt people. I felt guilt but not really more of an understanding of my energy on people.
Then my ex-husband was pushing me back telling me to go I could not stay it was not time, I begged to stay there with him. I was not allowed. He said this was not the place for me. I must go back and make things right.
Date NDE Occurred: 2000
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Was drugged at a bar. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
My blood alcohol level was .48 and someone had dosed me with MDMA apparently.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal The whole time.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole time.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It was irrelevant.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was somewhat transparent as was my ex-husband.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn't really hear anything; so to speak, it was more of a telepathy.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No Felt like I was floating.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My ex-husband was there and someone I didn't recognize.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Unequaled Peace, love.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future My son.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal atheist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I am very spiritual now.
What is your religion now? Moderate spiritual
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am very spiritual now.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Cannot describe.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I value them.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain It is not something I find easy to describe.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No I have always been psychic to a degree.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? My ex-husband was there.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Two years - I don't honestly know what their thoughts are, don't care either. I know what I saw.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Only had heard of them, did not believe in them though.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I knew it had happened but thought perhaps it was just a dream.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real The more I read other's stories the more I know I wasn't dreaming.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No And I have done plenty of drugs.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I will never doubt life after death.