Usually I would be afraid to go into an operation and my daughter (Michelle L. whose NDE account is #3965) tells me she'll pray for me. Yet, I was unafraid as I went into the operating room. They said the heartbeat going and then they saw a straight line on the monitor. This is probably when the NDE happened to me.I had experienced going straight to heaven. When I went there, it was a wonderful experience. I had no pain at all. I saw a light that I can't explain but it was the brightest light I've ever seen. There were two brown-haired children sitting at a table; one was a daughter that I had miscarried and the other was my daughter Michelle L's miscarried son. They were grown up. I was happy to see them and they hugged me. My grandson, he was a little bit bigger than his two brothers on earth. My daughter Susan, looked just like Michelle her sister. I didn't know the reason why the miscarriages happened, so always had a sense of worry as to what became of them. They looked like they were very, very happy, which made me feel a lot better. Both children looked at me. My grandson said, 'Grandma, go back, we don't need you.' My daughter said, 'Ma, we're happy, we don't need you. Go back.' When I came back, I was in a lot of pain. In a way, I was disappointed to come back because of the pain I was in. After a few days, I was starting to feel better. And that's my experience.
Date NDE Occurred: 2010
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness. Surgery-related. While under general anesthesia. Other: Three aneurysms
I had been told before I went into the operating room, that I had a five percent chance of living: that means a ninety-five percent chance that I would die. I was on my third aneurism operation. I already had two aneurism operations before this operation. I had an ascending aorta, a descending aorta and this third one was an aorta between the stomach and the spine. All three operations were six hours long.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness The same as normal.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I felt the same as now.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was good, my vision.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was great, my hearing. It was a little extra better.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw the daughter who was miscarried and my grandson who had been miscarried by my daughter Michelle.
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I've never seen a light on this earth that bright. It was almost like the sun, that's how bright it was. It wasn't like a living room light, or a kitchen light; it was really bright.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was happy to see my daughter and grandson. When they told me they didn't need me, I felt down a little bit. But then I came back and I have my other family, so it made me feel glad in a way. The ones who said they didn't need me looked happy too.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Slightly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic I believed in God. I could have gone to church a little more often.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Before, I wondered if there was an afterlife. Now I know there is a heaven, because I went to heaven.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Unknown
What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic About the same. I can't do prolonged sitting or standing, so I stay home and I pray. I believe there is a God and I do believe there is a heaven because I went to heaven.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience It did change my beliefs. I wondered if there was a heaven and after my experience, I know there's a heaven.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No I wondered if there was a heaven. After my experience, I know there's a heaven.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain (Unknown to transcriber.)
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes It makes me believe more than I did before this experience. When I saw my two relatives, they were very happy, so I figured there was God. And they looked very, very happy, so I believe in God.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife does not exist
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I went to heaven, so I know we exist after life.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? To be kinder and more understanding. To be kinder and more understanding.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the ex I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the ex
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Seeing my unborn family members and how happy they were. I realized that heaven exists. I gained information about love.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes The only thing is that people might say to me is that they don't believe in heaven. I tell them that there is a heaven because I went to heaven. I wouldn't have said that before my experience.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes One time, when I was a kid: I was rushed to the hospital in an ambulance. I had a high, high fever. I was twelve years old. That's where I saw my body lying in the ambulance. I didn't see the light. I started going upwards. Then I was back to reality again. That was the only time that I had a near-death experience until the third operation on an aorta.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I feel that it's real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I feel that it's real. There's a heaven because I went there.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? The only thing I can say is it seemed real to me when I experienced it. I could see the children. It was like looking at you now sitting at the table; that's how I saw them. It was very clear. I didn't know the name of my daughter's unborn son. When I told her, 'He told me his name.' She said, 'Oh, my God!' She was shocked. She never told me the name. I described to her what he looked like. I had a miscarriage after my first child. I think it was a girl, because there was a girl sitting there, saying, 'Ma, I don't need you. You know, you gotta go back.' She looked like my daughter that's living. She looked just like her.
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