I found myself totally lucid, clear in mind and thought, floating in blackness. It felt as if I was lying on my side, but without feeling any pressure on the side I was lying on. To get a point of reference I looked down at myself, and observed I was all in white. My skin was a translucent white. I was wearing an oversized robe. Thinking of my position it shifted on its own, and now I felt I was upright, and I started to look around. The darkness had depth; it felt like the void went on to infinity. I was comfortable, and realized something had happened during the surgery, and I must had died. I got excited, because I was happy that my passing was painless. I was getting anxious to move on, and was wondering, and talking to myself when someone was coming to get me. I waited, and waited, time seemed to come to a standstill. I began to call out, if anyone was out there. No response, and became angry, and feeling abandoned, and cursed. Next thing I see is a room with people running all around me doing different things to my body.
I realized I was back in the hospital, back in the awareness of my body still no pain, and I wasn't breathing. This went on for at least five minutes, and I was amazed that no one noticed I was awake and looking around. I realized later that I might have been looking through my eyelids. Anyway, they began to roll my body on its back, and started to put tubes down my throat, and this is when I lost consciousness again. I later woke up on a respirator, stuck on that for a week or more, and developed a fever. Until about a month later, my mind started to work overtime, on the NDE. I wanted to do more exploring in that state again. Re-experience it, and move beyond that experience. I also had many unanswered questions. Why did I end up in a void? If there is a hell, is that where I was destined for? If so, why? Why didn't anyone come get me or see me? I think for the first time I found a real passion to pursue. It took ten years before the answers started to be revealed to me through Out Of Body experiences I started to have. The journey still continues.
Date NDE Occurred: 1985
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Complications from surgery. Due to collapsed throat, pressure reversed in my lungs causing them to fill up with blood causing me to drown in my own blood. I was in convulsions, so they had to paralyze my body to get me on the respirator. I would have died if they did not do this.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness The whole experience.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole experience.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt Happy, anger, anxious, and curiosity.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist 'No spirituality, Do not believe in organized religion'
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I meditate, have a nightly ritual of intention of out of body exploration, and experience different religions as they come into my life.
What is your religion now? Liberal 'Very spiritual. Take part in different religions, but not committed in any way. Just to experience.'
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I meditate, have a nightly ritual of intention of out of body exploration, and experience different religions as they come into my life.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes With time I learned about my faults, and to overcome most of them, improving my relationships with people.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain The experience is not hard to communicate, the emotions are, but I found people's response negative.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Couple of months. Response was, 'Ya right.' Or negative.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Had to explore the possibility of re-experiencing my nonphysical form.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Still on a spiritual path of nonphysical exploration.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes No medications, but through trance methods, dealing with sleep patterns I have had numerous experiences.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Everything has a time and place.