When I flat lined at first there was nothing. Then there was an extraordinary bright (white) light. Very, very, bright. Then it started to change to a beautiful blue. An indescribable blue. Then suddenly I was back. The doctors had to shock me back to life. The first thing the nurse to my left said to me was did I see the light. When I came back, I was very emotional and crying. I didn't even know what had happened. They had to remind me where I was and why I was there. The word children was in my head right away and I couldn't stop thinking about the word children for weeks. I was also depressed. When I was at home recovering, my dreams at night were about angels. I was really seeing them a lot in my dreams when I slept. The experience put questions toward my beliefs.
Date NDE Occurred: 'August 11, 2005'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Dr. was doing an electrophysiology study. I flat lined during the study. Other I flat lined during and EP study of my heart.
I flat lined.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
Did you feel separated from your body? No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Unsure. I guess I knew I was seeing the light but I can't really comment on consciousness.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Seeing the extraordinary white light and the change into the blue light that I have never seen before.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Very white and bright. Unlike any white and brightness I have ever seen. Then a beautiful blue like I have never seen.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I think it was too quick to realize any experience.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist Christian
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I have more questions now.
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist Christian
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I have more questions now.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have always had small amounts of psychic ability before my NDE.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I wondered about the word children that was immediately in my mind after I was shocked back to the real world.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Right away with my family. They just listened. They were too emotional about what happened to me to focus on the NDE.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes No effect.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I was depressed. I felt that I should have seen more proof of the other side. I had more questions than answers after my NDE.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Since the NDE. I no longer wear a watch. I have always worn a watch but now watches stop working when I wear them.