I was driving home from my work. Apparently, there were not enough customers and too many girls wanting to work. So, I went to apply for another job in Austin and then drove home. I can get home two ways. I decided to go the more scenic route to see if I could pass my husband and say, 'Hi' on his way to work. It was dusk and a sudden fog appeared in front of me. That is the last I remember of that day in real-world time.
I remember floating through the woods of many trees. There seem to be an open path where I was floating toward. I heard people in the woods laughing at me, but I could not see them. Still floating forward, I felt no pain, or any emotions. Yet the feeling was wonderful. I came to a stop and said 'I am ready'. I knew that this was the place to leave the living. Many people spoke as one collective mind. They said that it was not my time and that I had one more thing to do.
I then woke up in the hospital in a fog not knowing anyone, even though my husband and his family were there to visit. They gave me a little stuffed animal. I think it was a bear. I remember eating various colors of Jell-O, orange and yellow. My head hurt. I had my seat belt on, yet my face and head had incurred multiple concussions. My left temple had split open and had a few stitches.
I had a dream a few years before of several men holding my legs and arms down and injecting my arm with a drug that drugged me to where I was immobile, though that would never happen to me.
A cop had shown up at my work later, to say he saw me at the hospital, the event of the accident and that I was so hostile that I had thrown or kicked (I do not remember) a female nurse into a wall and she left, not wanting to deal with me anymore. Back to my head: I remember when I first woke up in the hospital; my arms and legs were strapped to the bed with brown leather straps that buckled. Often a male nurse or doctor would ask me what year it was and what my name was.
I left the hospital four days later still not really sure who I was or who anybody else was. A nurse wheeled me out of the hospital and I remember looking into a room where someone was sitting in a chair and their mouth was terrifyingly torn up and propped open with metal. Their arms were propped up oddly, too. I looked away with horror of the reality others are going through. I had four stitches in the side of my head, but that is all the doctor could do. I remember being curled up in a ball on my left side on a bed. The doctor was trying to convince me to show him my wound. I know things are not in order because memories came to me later.
I went home and it took a month before I realized I had kids and wanted them home. I still felt like where I lived was not my home and my husband was not really my husband. I lived on four anti-pain tablets every 4-6 hours for a couple of years. I had a lot of depression, because I wanted to go back to where I felt complete and wonderful before I was turned back to this reality called earth. I thought of earth as a sort of hell, full of pain and suffering. I questioned why I was sent back and what that one more thing I had to do was. I was more family inspired, the pain did pass, and life was a nicer place without it. I am now with a new husband and a new life and home. Both of my parents whom have been separated and divorced for over 20 years have died within two weeks of each other and yesterday I got an unknown phone call of a ghostly voice saying 'save me'. A trick? A mistake? All this has made me ponder life, death and in between once more.
Date NDE Occurred: April 1997
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Direct head injury. Other: I am not sure. It was a car accident. I was alone in the crash on one side of the road until a person drove by to find me and called for help.
I had a car accident. I drove into a sudden fog on a two-way highway at 65 mph. Police told hospital staff that there was a recliner on the road and it appeared that I tried to swerve around it. Only I lost control and drove into trees.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I know the woods I saw and was floating in were similar to the woods my car had crashed into. My car stereo was stolen before a man found me and called for help. I suspect the laughing was from the young men who may have taken my car stereo from my car as I lay bleeding and unconscious after the accident.
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal It was different and hard to explain, but I will try. I got to speak to and hear many minds speak as one. Things looked similar, but we're not the same, similar to sharing the same space in a different dimension. The woods were vivid yet a dark space took the place of sky and through the woods seemed to end with a reflection of the same woods. The hecklers seemed to be trying to take my attention away from moving forward. I could not see them, but sensed them as being a couple of young men up to no good. I understood what I was doing there and why. There was no wind, hot, cold, sky, sadness or happiness, no smell or taste. I was not in my body. All knowledge is pulled together and I was going to join that knowledge and awareness.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole experience.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I am not sure. I was not thinking about time during the experience.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was seeing with my mind and not my eyes.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was hearing more with my mind and not my ears.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I was passing through many trees that opened into a path as I floated through them.
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes There were two young men laughing at me in the woods, but I had no interest in them. When I stopped floating, I met with many minds of many people who spoke as one. They were a collective of beings that I assumed were humans at one time.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain I was looking around me as I was moving forward and when I came to a stop, my mind connected to speak with the other. No visual at that point.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt confident, knowing, understanding, and accepting.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes The end of the woods where I met with the many people who spoke as one
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Unknown
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I am more open to people who are good people with good intentions.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me
What is your religion now? Other or several faiths I have studied a few and believe there is now something beyond death. I also believe in morals, ethics, community and family. I have allways experienced unknown things since I was a child and told not to speak of it. I wish not to chose a religion because I do not want to choose a side.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I believed at that time that you died and there was nothing. That life as a human was one time and then you were nothing when you died. This experience was that I did go some place and there is some place and you are part of a larger group of beings. The feeling is wonderful.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believe that we go someplace after we die.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin It was many minds of many people who spoke as one. I was told that it was not my time yet and I had one more thing to do.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I felt like this was not the first time I had come to the people and had entered before. It was familiar and I knew the way. I new there that I had died before and hence have lived before.
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Oneness, yes that is exactly my experience. We are one together as a whole collective. It's an understanding. I knew then and there seemed to be definite purpose and order.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God does not exist
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain We are energy that cannot be destroyed or created. Always existing, experiencing, and creating. We are all part of one and the one is made up of all of us.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? Unknown
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I felt connected and part of all the people.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes I was told that I had one more thing to do. What is is is unknown. It was like I had a job to do and I had to figure it out and or accomplish it to get to my next destination.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife does not exist
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes We do go some place. Everyone does. I ask myself if bad people go to the wonderful place too, but am still unsure. It is a wonderful place and I think once you get to enter, the possibilities beyond that are open and free to your wants, dreams and even pe
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I moderately fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Uncertain I think I had to come back to experience this place in a certain way this time.?
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? No changes in my life No changes in my life.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Uncertain I have or have not changed relationships based on my living experiences with them and not because of a near death experience.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Explaining emotions I had never experienced in this reality of life on earth was tough. Going into more detail about visuals and explaining the people I met was a little emotional and I had to try and understand what I remembered by re- examining those memories again.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience A dream fades for me and this experience never faded.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I have always had odd abilities, but I seem to be more connected to the afterlife now. I wish I knew what to do with it or have people be okay with the way I am.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I am happy to know that I am not alone after death and that there is a place for me somewhere.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes One month and people either said it was just in my head or they thought I was just still healing and my mind was 'off'. Some were curious and loved to hear about the experience.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Like I said earlier: This place was familiar and I knew what was happening to me. I was about to go to the other side and it was vivid and real and this memory never faded like a dream.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It happened. I believe it and do not care what others think. You do not have to be a certain religion to go to this wonderful place. Just be you with good intentions along the way. No one's perfect. We are all learning together. We are not alone in a good way.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No