Experience Description

I can remember being scared to have the operation. During the surgery, I almost died and I can remember rising out of my body a few feet and all I was interested in seeing was my mother. I did notice a great big huge light coming from above me. I couldn't tell if this was a surgery light or if it came from elsewhere. I floated through doorways and didn't pay any attention to the surgical goings on. The main thing that I was interested in was comforting my mother. I remember that she was with a couple of her friends. I wanted so very badly just to be able to reach out and hold her. I can remember being there with them; of course, they had no idea. Suddenly I was snapped away, something must have happened in the operating room, and I was whisked back into my body. After my operation and throughout the rest of my childhood I became an adult. I had no childhood really and I was always there to help my mother. (I think this was even stronger since her family was in England.)

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1968

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death I had a brain tumor and it was being surgically removed/attempted. It involved the brain and other things in that area. It was a craneo-pharyngioma. I have actually had three major brain operations for this tumor.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I had no appearance at all. I saw a mass of light, but not real bright that was in my place.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was very alert and knew and understood all that was going on.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain I saw a light I was just unsure where it came from.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I knew that I had a purpose that was yet to be fulfilled. I also know that I have not yet gotten there either.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What is your religion now? Liberal Baptist

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I was no longer afraid of death at all. I knew that I had a purpose to serve and I couldn't quit before I reached that. I had a closeness with my mother that I cannot put in words, but that was important because she needed that and especially since I had taken on an adult like role.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain It was very emotional for me. I find anything emotional hard to explain.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes After this, and it continued to grow, I found that I did have a few psychic abilities. But they were limited.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best part of this experience was being able to comfort. The worst part I think was when I was suddenly snatched away from it.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No Not totally.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain More surgeries which led to it?

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Was your experience with living people or deceased ones? Mine was with the living.