While resting on my bed, I was surprised to be looking down on myself from the upper part of the roof. I was floating above my body and at first, I didn't recognize it.
At first, I thought: 'Who was I observing?' Because of this my body seemed very strange.
Then I heard a voice saying, 'Let's go'. I sensed an entity close by. In spite of not going to it, we began to ascend as if through a viaduct. We were surrounded by humid clouds that seemed to be refreshing. I observed other viaducts through which other Beings ascended.
I perceived the sensation that this earthly life was ending and I said to myself: 'Is this what is going to happen?' And the voice answered 'It could be'.
I had come out of my body, securely ascending and floating towards a place where I observed a subtle blue haze, and then an intense gloom. I continued rising until I was in a rectangular room.
Suddenly I was beside two Beings that I could only observe with my lateral vision. They had expressive and large eyes. I asked 'Is this a definitive act?' and they then replied, 'Possibly'.
Then I asked myself, 'Am I dreaming?' And the entities replied 'No! No, you are not dreaming. Look at your family now!' and there appeared in front of me at a certain distance, as if posing for a photo, a large amount of people from my family, some recognizable and others not, but having a great resemblance between them. They were presented to me as ancestors that I didn't recognize, and children nearby that had died young. They smiled at me. They seemed grateful and happy to see me. I also experienced a kindness and a sense of pleasure at recognizing most of them, and those of whom I had the most pleasant memories with.
I tried to approach them, but they told me not to do so. I felt a sensation of warmth so great that I never wanted to return. I felt a subtle nostalgia, from being unable to hug them, especially my father and my grandparents.
Then they faded away little by little, and there appeared a great variety of tapered openings. Ascending through their lower and very deep angle, emerged figures of people that sprang forth and I saw their little heads all the time very low at the beginning of their ascent. Suddenly in one of the channels, I saw what seemed like the image of my kind mother who was also ascending. I asked if it was her allotted time, and they said to me, 'Quite possibly but not very soon'.
Many arrived, and we looked at each other. We recognized our familial physique, although I didn't remember them specifically or exactly. Others were totally unrecognizable. It would be more than ten years later when I would really be able to recognize them as part of the family, or as friends of my brother Carlos Alberto.
I saw other entities who I heard saying, that I found myself in a stage of profound transition. They said that I could continue, but they didn't know whether if I went to the end with them, that I could never return.
I wanted to know that there was no risk in continuing too far. To which they responded, that from here on there was an enormous risk of never being able to return. Nevertheless, I decided to carry on, and I went into a creamy area, as if it was a giant canal. I climbed, and from the bottom of which emerged a brilliant and explosive light of reddish and orange tone.
A monologue began in which my whole life was reviewed. I observed all my elucidated acts from the past. I asked myself if I would have achieved it if they had been any different, but I was made aware that it's not worthwhile to judge them or take them as synthesizable. It wasn't about making judgments or being defensive.
In spite of all this my curiosity made me greatly want to see the possibilities and chances of these occurrences and events.
I then enjoyed balancing the feelings of playing with my guilt and retaliation that I should have assumed. But of those which I was not burdened with any dissatisfaction.
I understood that the methods and resources that I had at hand, to be able to spend through the artifacts of this past life, were sufficient and agreed with my conscience. I felt around me a bluish stupor. Then I saw figures of kind Beings that greeted me and agreed with the considerations in my thoughts.
I found that events that seem important during the course of life isn't so important.
I then identified myself with my Ego of Diego. I decided that within the transcendental, there were some things that I would have liked to analyze as to their function at the moment of the action. But they reiterated again, nothing was that important, and that everything had been a part of my development.
Nevertheless, they allowed me to understand all the contradictions, actions, and situations in which I felt wrong or obliged to accept them despite seeming irrational. Their words were precise for my well-being and inner peace. I went into an intense inner dialogue justified the past occurrences, or determining them fortuitously. They said to me that everything that I had been feeling was part of the game that comprised part of the evolution. But in reality, none of it was important. I understood that everything was valid and excusable because my position in earthly life was no more than a game of evolutionary experiences.
At that moment, I saw the lucid eyes of my companions and I began to concentrate.
The perception of the events in my life was simultaneous. I wanted to ask so many questions. I understood that the bigger part of our ambitions was ambivalent. My whole life appeared like a film, but in 3D, and happened at a great speed. I managed to ask if I could see it at a slower speed, to savor, and better balance some interesting periods, but they replied that it wasn't worthwhile. That it wasn't necessary to analyze it because in the end I would know very well what it would mean. Everyone spoke with great kindness. Nevertheless, I felt very nostalgic. But one thing was clear. There were no transcendental terms of analysis.
I asked myself if the people I knew, were aware where they were because some went and others returned appearing disconcerted.
I continued going up. These Beings that were with me were so kind and discreet. Yet also unreadable and unfathomable when I asked certain questions and they replied with a simple smile. The communication was always telepathic, and they instantly knew what I was thinking. Their replies were essential, concise, precise and certain. They were Beings of great peace, without adornments and with a tender sense of humor.
Everything was understood without the need to say anything. After having stopped the outlining of my cultural origins, they guided me as they happily said to me, 'None of this is important.'
I rested a while, becoming peaceful and at the same time ascending through a yellow, opaque, yet translucent, duct. I saw Beings that symbolically stripped away their physical remnants, now that they were no longer needed. I passed through what looked like a train station. I saw people that were received and were guided and helped to leave their life on earth.
There were some Beings that I had known for about twenty years, and I had never seen them again. I asked them what they were doing there, and they explained to me what type of illnesses they had had. There had been two people that I didn't know, that I knew years later in the physical dimension and I asked them what they were doing there. They said they were attending a very serious health problem and they had almost died, but finally they were better and were finally going back to their bodies.
Nevertheless, there was a friend there, from my family that would leave his body in a decisive way. Some Beings then arrived, to accompany another friend that had been too gravely ill to return to his body. Another group ascended and between this friend and the family that didn't know his body was dead, he felt perturbed and I avoided talking to her, just then I saw that the beings that were always with me laughed.
Then I fell unconscious, but came to very quickly and saw I was in a type of refreshing sauna. I could tell that my consciousness was intact. I asked myself if there had been any risk of not being able to return because I felt I had crossed a borderline. Nevertheless, I remembered with affection my loved ones and on feeling sorrow they said that the decision would be made later.
I had the strange sensation of wonder. I felt a tender nostalgia and I had the feeling of being taken by the hand, to undertake a long much faster journey in a mentholated sensation. I heard cosmic sounds, similar to those in electronic music, very clearly, with clear echoes, deep cosmic echoes, almost metallic, that surrounded us. I felt a refreshing wind, inside. There were exquisite aromas, everything was warm, like a calm mist, in a perception of a solid base, on which we found ourselves.
Then came a great surprise. I saw an enormous, shining golden-form. Emerging from its center, was a figure of light, very much whiter and stronger than the rest. It made me feel that I would be irreversibly blinded forever. But it kept coming closer to me. Every worry was erased and I began to realize that the identity that represented myself arriving at a point which I was just a 'Me'. Some dialogue had to have taken place with this magnificent Being.
Between a state of fantastic stupor where this magnificent Being emanated supreme harmony and surrounded me with immense splendor. It was overflowing with knowledge and wisdom and of thoughtfulness, of which I was merely a witness.
In the end, I could see that between its center and myself was a slice or a differential channel on the floor. It let me know that I could jump over it, but then I could never return. Then I suggested that without living any more experiences, I could return. In the center of the immense fullness, and overflowing satisfaction that I had perceived there, I found it almost impossible to leave. I was asked if I still wanted to return, and with a light understanding that there were matters still unresolved. Very agreeably, I replied I could return and asked would it be possible to send me back? Then I heard a deafening clicking sound that seemed to tear me in half. I was finally able to get away from the great radiance.
I was again in a misty plain and refreshingly full. When encountering my previous companions, I noticed a tremendous surprise and incredulity on asking myself what had happened there. That yes, I had returned. And I replied yes. They were almost struck down and thought that this was nearly impossible, and would have to prepare me for experiences tremendously more intense.
Then they said to me that nevertheless, I would continue a life equally tortuous, and with some success until the appointed time.
At that moment, I looked up and I passed people like before who were ascending or descending. Surprisingly and suddenly there appeared to me a figure of my younger brother, Carlos Alberto. I looked at surprised and he showed me that soon he would pass over. Around him appeared various people that greeted me even though I had never known them.
They let me understand they were great friends with my brother and that they too would go. Many years later I got to know them, in reality I had never seen them. Then one day there appeared a tall young boy that I never knew who greeted me very warmly. I couldn't tell who he was. He said that he had the same name as me, and that we were family, but I just looked at his face of overly familiar features, especially a certain family likeness. Also, much later on, in an opportunity of going back to one of my unforgettable uncle's family. I met with the eldest boy, who I had never seen from infancy, now the eldest and identical to the one I had seen during the experience and so it would seem, a little bit later.
At that moment, I went back to join with my old acquaintances and they said to me how much further we were from where we had met, it was like a doorway into the mist, which ascends for three or four steps, and they never erased their use. They said 'Well let's go!' when they came close to the door they indicated that they knew about the steps and would look around. When I put my head around the door, everything around them was immense darkness, more than black, and you couldn't see the bottom, but one of them said to me that I had to take a step. We said goodbye smiling, and I started to fall in the black immense and fathomless hole, at a deafening speed, that for some moments made me so dizzy and tormented that I started to feel that that which I believed to be myself, would very quickly burst. I managed to murmur, 'I can't stand this!' and as if from nowhere I heard a voice saying to me 'Yes you can, put up with it!' Then suddenly I felt myself go into a vast emptiness clearer in which was heard curious and pretty tinkling, like crystals and bells. When I tried to see how far away they were, as if something had burst, it caused me to go into my physical body, where I sat down, violently leaving me rigid, with a huge pain between the chest and the back, which lasted for a while. Then I was able to breathe better, and lie down, and I believe, to sleep for many more hours.
During the experience, I felt as if I was a voluminous body with a stable temperature from which came a luminous tone, like a sealed unit totally safe within my own light. I felt an infinity of warm tones, like a landscape of caressing sound. Sounds of bells, in clear and resplendent tones, as in rain or Sun. Intense aromas of aniseed, emanated from a refreshing wind. And with a music in it, crisscrossing me with a continual sound of mechanical triangles.
I breathed oxygenated air that reminded me of my infancy with the scent of orchids, jasmines, carnations and tender roses. That which we try to be in worldly society is just an ethical convention, and a diet of mathematics of reason. This environment is necessary to permit fighting for every color with the final evolution of the spirit.
The immanent cosmic laws are for themselves. The totality (God if that's what you want to call him), is an absolute being that lives inside us permanently.
Good and evil are in relation to that which we have taken from our lessons.
Why do some of us have to travel through the horrors of the darkness? Is it that we have return more thick-skinned? No, we have simply contributed to that humble but brilliant light, the light of living consciousness.
We are predestined cosmic particles, with an inducement to run a path of which we are unconscious, happily. But we have the freedom to develop ourselves within our own consciousness, to grow or not to. This is the totality of consciousness to which we pertain. No one will judge us and we evaluate ourselves, as to that which is a better growth.
I feel lucid and satisfied that the grace that was given to me to go away from myself or remain with myself, without implications of guilt and appeared in the tender pollen bath of this world.
The being of light is the most exquisite center of harmony and pleasure that allows us to rest in our own forgetfulness. It is the source of our final alliance.
The reasonable and limited analysis achieved by our brains and our earthly conventions, can't explain or define what you feel close to the being of light. His wisdom and his tenderness are of such a dimension that the limits of our brains, won't allow us to capture or explain totally the experience once we have come back. The limitation isn't able to define the immensity. Nevertheless, when we are there ourselves, we will understand.
Some people will be able to incorporate in their experience the respective education and say that the being of the light is Moses, Jesus, Buddha, etc.
I saw as a fantastic being of light without a name.
On awakening I remember that my companions had also come up to give me news of the possibly ending the life of my wife, the girl that we would have much later and myself and our fantastic father would die.
These are my thoughts about the experience:
The beings that accompanied me, had a lucid consciousness, and a marvelous sense of humor, that you would want in wise Beings. Before returning to my body, they looked on smiling.
They weren't angels, because this is a human concept. They were wise beings of light. With my lucid vision of my life, I have to adapt myself to adverse and difficult conditions. I understand many things about evolution and of consciousness, why we are here but I ignore quite a lot.
From Democritus until the clear spirit and colored spirit of Bergson, I feel that we have ended up contradicting one another, perpetuating the eternal ellipse over and beneath ourselves.
With the light of our own living consciousness, we feel the presence of the being of light: Stated, celebration, revelation, jubilation, glory, and more for eternity.
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Meditation
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Greater intensity.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the encounter with the light.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses More vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Greater intensity.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Similar
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No
The experience included: Passing into or through a tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain Beings that came and went through viaducts.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes
The experience included: A Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an Unearthly light? Yes I had never seen it in physical reality.
The experience included: An unearthly landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Immense
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
The experience included: Life Review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Future Visions
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a Boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
Did you come to a border or point of No return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Slightly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Slightly important to me
What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of Unearthly Beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin The account describes it.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? Unknown
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife probably exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I did not fear death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Unknown
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? No changes in my life
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The sensation of being light.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes With my wife.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No