I was in a near fatal motor vehicle accident and was cut from my car and air lifted to a local hospital. During the helicopter ride, I had a conversation with my deceased mother-in-law and grandmother. I remember being so happy to see them and smiling and feeling euphoric. I wanted to hug and kiss them but my mother-in-law simply said, 'Turn around, it isn't your time yet.' I felt perplexed and feel as though I made a strange face. She followed with, 'Amy can't lose you, so close to losing me. Go back and be with her.' She had such a kind loving look on her face. My grandmother was over her shoulder, smiling and shaking her head yes. Amy is my long-time partner. I remember thinking she is right and they disappeared. I then remember such excruciating pain that I passed out until I got to the hospital emergency room. They woke me and I told them to call Amy and finally remembered her number. The rest is about recovery but my visit with them was so vivid.
Date NDE Occurred: 'October 22, 2008'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Direct head injury 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
I had a near-fatal motor vehicle accident with multiple brain bleeds, broken neck (C1) stable fracture, multiple broken bones, and severe hematoma.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I think when she told me to turn around - I felt very alert and clearly understood her message.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything was bright and crisp. I heard the helicopter but it was very distant while they were there and much louder after they left. They both seemed very transparent and my mother-in-law, Betsy, seemed to be sitting down but I didn't see a chair. My sense of touch also seemed super sharp - I felt their smiles - it warmed me.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard the helicopter but it was very distant while they were there and much louder after they left. I heard or felt everything they communicated.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes As described above.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain Well not so much a light as I felt the space was exceptionally light and bright. It was an odd light, bluish with a pulsing feel.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt elated, joyful. I was so happy to see them - it made me feel warm to be near them. I was feeling only good things - no pain or fear. It erased all anxiety and left me feeling at peace.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal none
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal none
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Everyone in my life is more precious.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I think the fact that I was so close to crossing over - it took some powerful women in my life to keep me here. I know many people who have died but these are two of the most powerful and clearly the degree needed.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared this story with Amy, family, and friends in the emergency room - so within hours. They were so scared and worried about me that I think something that brought me peace made them very happy. I did later learn that it scared them to think I was so close to death because Amy and many of the others believe in NDE. Everyone close to me was changed by my accident and NDE so it is hard to tell what changed them most.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Only what I have learned by reading.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I feel like it is the single most important reason why I am here. It feels as real as my fingers feel on the keyboard. There is no doubt in my mind that it happened or that I believe it happened.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It's the same - nothing has changed.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.