I was a disk jockey (DJ) at the time and worked spinning at Hollywood after-hours parties until 6am in the morning and stayed up much later to party with roommates, friends, and other club-goers. I brought a bunch of people back to my apartment from the club and I felt like I was a rock star. I felt successful in my DJ career and it was time to celebrate. I snorted a line of ketamine and also had been ingesting a concentrated liquid version of GHB intermittently. These are two combinations you should never mix, but for some reason I thought I could handle it or it was a small quantity of ketamine so I felt safe. 30-60 minutes later, I lost consciousness. My roommate said I experienced convulsions and that my body and face turned blue.
Date NDE Occurred: 'April 12, 2001'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Accident. Drug or medication overdose. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Total inner peace, acceptance, love, and beauty.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was in the white light, I felt a very warm glow. I was with relatives and deceased persons that I could not see but I felt their presence. I heard them say, 'Don't worry about anything, ever.'
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. White light incomparable to any vision on Earth.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. More clarity than the hearing experienced every day and deep understanding of the meaning behind the words.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I don't recall going through a tunnel. I felt a floating up experience that was from some darkness to pure white light. Then there was a dropping down experience back into my body, but I cannot say for sure that it was a tunnel.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I felt that my aunt Ginny was there. I really felt that she was there and it was possible that my Uncle Ted and Grandma Helen were there. I cannot say with certainty that they were there, but I really feel like aunt Ginny was there, but I could not see anything other than the white light.
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Brightest white light I have ever seen. So bright I could not see anything else.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm It was pure white light. Brighter than anything, I had ever seen and it felt really good. It felt like a drop back into my body when I was awakened.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Bliss, peace, calm, some fear of unknown at first, but mostly peace and calm as I entered the white light. Once I entered the light there was no question as to whether I was safe and secure.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I felt that I had been given a second chance. I also felt guilty, like I had stolen special knowledge from the universe. My experience of being in the white light made me want to preach the word of the gospel and become a Christian minister.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant I was Christian-Protestant at the time, but was not currently attending any church services. I frequently questioned the Bible and assertions that it was literal fact. I did not believe it was a literal text and saw it as metaphorical. I was still developing my views regarding spirituality.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I am more into Eastern meditation. I practice Kundalini Yoga religiously. I believe in both Jesus Christ and other wisdom traditions as my guides along with the angels in the NDE.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Other faiths- New age I am more spiritual than religious, I consider myself to be a Gnostic Christian & very liberal Born-Again Christian with Jesus Christ as my savior. I also say prayers from the Sikh faith including Japji Sahib - the Sikh Prayer. I have respect and reverence for all religious traditions.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I believed in an afterlife, but I didn't necessarily believe in being given specific messages such as "don't worry about anything" nor did I certainly practice that in my daily life. I think I developed a practice of worrying on a consistent basis in my daily life so that when I heard this it was very refreshing.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I immediately wanted to share my knowledge with others and help others. I felt like God had given me a second chance and it was my mission to spread the word about how wonderful God is and how wonderful life is.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I felt surrounded by many beings. I felt my Aunt Ginny was there and possibly my paternal grandparents. I wasn't sure though because all I could see was this incredible bright white light. I heard them say, 'It is not your time yet, it will be ok' and 'don't worry about anything... ever.' They seemed to say this last part with such emphasis and strength that it really stuck with me. It was as if this was a message that they had to give me and that they wanted me to take it back home with me.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Being surrounded by the beings in the experience, I felt at least 7, though there could have been more, that we are connected through spirit. Yes.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Purpose was to come back to Earth to do good works and spread messages of love and calm.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes There was definitely an awareness that there is life after physical Earthly death. The people I encountered seemed to be very loving and operating at a higher level of consciousness and understanding of this Earth.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes The beings said "Not to worry about anything" in a very definitive and assured way that I have never heard anybody speak of.
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I felt totally loved and protected in the experience. It was as if the beings were holding this space for me. They were huddled around like I was a newborn baby or something. I felt their compassion and love. It was intense.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes I make connections with more spiritually and psychically attuned individuals.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I think about the experience a lot and even more so now that we are entering the same Chinese year of the Snake when the experience happened. I am free from drugs and alcohol now so I think about it more often and this is the one experience that stands out from that time. Accuracy is really hard to gauge, but I would say I remember the events from this event more accurately than other life events because there are a few key points in the story that are very consistent.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I've told many people. Recently, people have been really inspired and encourage me to keep sharing it with others.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain I'm really not sure. I don't recall. It was 12 years ago and I was a young DJ mostly concerned with spinning records, partying, and girls. I may have heard about it, but I cannot tell you for sure. I did extensive research on the Internet for days and years after though.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real I was really bewildered and constantly questioning if it was real many weeks to months to years later. However, immediately after the experience I considered it to be very real and today I view it as real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I think it was definitely real in the sense that I was given a second chance to live life and given a special message that would serve me and my entire family. The 'Don't worry about anything ever' line was paramount to the experience. It was simple, but a reflection of how humans beings in general stress over the smallest matters.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? There was definitely an awareness that there is life after physical Earthly death. The people I encountered seemed to be very loving and operating at a higher level of consciousness and understanding of this Earth. I was surrounded by the Beings in the experience. There were at least seven of them, though there could have been more. I felt that we are connected through spirit. I felt totally loved and protected in the experience. It was as if the beings were holding this space for me. They were huddled around like I was a newborn baby or something. I felt their compassion and love. It was intense. I consider it a necessary part of my spiritual growth and a blessing.
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