Desmond F NDE

Experience Description

Finally, I hear a siren, and soon, two men and a woman arrive (she's the doctor, I think). Immediately they do an electrocardiogram. They talk to me, asking me where I felt the pain. They give me one or two pills to swallow, and then an oxygen perfusion and morphine. The pain quickly slows down a little after they take care of me and give me the morphine perfusion, at least, enough to get some alertness.

They tell me they are going to take me to the city of Grenoble, since they can make a coronary angiography at the Emergency Service, so they are going to take me over there or to the city of Annecy, but in any case, it is urgent to go now. They call an ambulance that arrives quite fast, and they prepare the shell mattress. They are at least five now. I feel the tension rising, I hear, 'You must go now! Fast, fast!!' They take me by the arms, legs and waist to transfer me to the shell mattress. I have time to say, 'Sorry, I cannot help you,' and, 'I do not know if this is normal, but I cannot feel my hands, my arms or my legs.' I have the sensation of having my mouth full, I cannot articulate, and then everything changes.

I am now fine. I am feeling intensely and immensely well, lying there. I think so, for I am both spectator and actor of the stage. I am both inside and outside, so am I lying down? I don't know. I was bathing in a soft light around (or in front?) of me. There were some familiar and extremely caring presences lean on me. I have no concept of time passing. I have the feeling that they tell me something although I hear nothing, I am sure there is a communication, though unable to mention any content or formal expression of it. As for what I feel - everything is serenity, benevolence, love - I bathe in the fullness, I dare say perfect happiness.

Suddenly I hear, 'That's it, he is back!' and I see someone giving me a heart massage. He stops, looks at me and tells me that hopefully he did not break any of my ribs, but that he had to do this.

At the moment where I regained consciousness, during the split second where we do not really know where - or when, or who is there - I thought, 'Who is this idiot who wakes me up right at the moment where I have never ever been so well.' Then, I quickly regained my consciousness and realized what had happened.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 19 12 2008

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening' Ventricular fibrillation.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I don't know - probably during the experience with the familiar presences.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Concept of completely distorted time: Long? Short? - it didn't make sense.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Notions of in front/behind, up/down, no longer really had the same meaning.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes There were familiar presences and extremely caring. I felt they told me something although I heard nothing, I am sure there was a communication though I am unable to mention any content or formal expression of it. My feeling was of serenity, benevolence, love.

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Soft ambient light.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? See the story.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:


What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Catholique

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Moderate Catholique

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:


During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:


Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain I am not sure, since I am speaking about an EXPERIENCE that cannot be shared.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Through this experience, I acquired the knowledge that death is not the end of life.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Several months later, with my relatives who had some trouble to accept that I experienced something. I did not really express the desire to return with them.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I read the book 'Life After Life' at the time of its release. I did not believe it.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It is hard to say since I was rather focused on the fact of still being alive.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I did a few steps on the path of the afterlife and I saw nothing scary, quite the contrary.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No