I overdosed on pain meds and was dead for several minutes. I had to have adrenaline shot into my heart.
While I was gone, I found myself lying in the grass in a big field filled with beautiful daisies of all different sizes. There were hills and trees in the distance. I experienced a feeling of great love and understanding. While I was there, I really didn't want to leave that place, but I just knew that when I came back, everything would be OK!
Date NDE Occurred: summer 1995
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event?
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes There was such a feeling of “knowing” that my consciousness was not in my body. Since coming back, the feeling of what being separated from my body was like is still very clear in my mind.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? No sadness and/or grief feelings
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Slightly drowsy
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There was no feeling of time as we understand it. It was like I could go backwards or forward in time, as I pleased.
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate believed christian until I had my experience showed me I was here to experience these feelings of happiness and pain
What is your religion now? Uncertain I know there's something after
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I feel that there is someone I can go to when events like this happen. But it's not really a someONE, like a person, or like a family member. It's a "knowing" that I have, and this "knowledge" gives me the sort of guidance that I used to ask my friends and family for.
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I now know that I chose to do this life on Earth. I also know that I will go back to the other side after experiencing what I want to experience on Earth.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Sometimes people look at me as weird, like when I have a grin on my face because I'm seeing things that only *I* know and feel.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Just having no fear was the best. Now I when I worry about things, as I still do sometimes, I remind myself to just do what I can to help others, and remember that possessions and material objects don't really matter.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared my experience with a very Christian woman. She looked at the NDE through the Christian lens of her Bible beliefs. Personally, I don't think there's a God that's going to judge us. I don’t believe that God will stand at the gates and hear what we did right or wrong in order for us to get into heaven. I believe everyone chose this Earth experience, whether they now believe it or not!
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I just know it was real. I can feel it throughout my body and my thoughts every day.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Thanks! Just thought I'd write it down somewhere today, thanks.