Experience Description

As I waited for the ambulance to pick me up, I was pulled out of the car, which was in flames, and put on the back of a pickup truck. I could barely breathe and felt nauseous. One of my lungs was punctured and my intestines and stomach had burst. The men by my side kept telling me not to close my eyes but I couldn't help it - I was getting tired, my eyes were feeling heavy and I wanted to rest. I fought as much as I could, though eventually I could no longer hear the EMT's voice, I felt warm, and all my pain went away. There was light, I remember - just an illuminated space and nothing else that was visible. I was very aware that I was passing over and I was not afraid. I did not see or think of any of my loved ones. I was completely alone and totally at peace. I remember being surprised that I wasn't afraid. For a second I thought I would die, but shortly afterward realized that I had to go back and needed to fight for my life with the EMT. I remember coming back and feeling pain and discomfort but with confidence that I was being looked after and would be okay. I remember being very calm and thinking that I was in that truck for an hour, when in fact it had been more like ten at the most.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: June 2000

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Life threatening event, but not clinical death It was a car accident. We were in a new Suburban merging onto the freeway when a Probe driving in the opposite direction lost control, drove over the grassy median separating the two-lane freeways going in opposing directions, and hit us head-on. The car I was in crushed the Probe, killing the three passengers in that car. Everyone in the Suburban survived but were knocked out instantly, except for me. I was conscious in the moments right after the accident and on/off later.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Toward the beginning and end I was confused and disoriented. In the midst of the experience I was at my most certain of what was happening to me.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning In that moment space and time were no longer relevant.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There was not much for me to see, It was mostly light, so it is difficult to make a comparison.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard nothing.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain It was a space of light. I am unsure as to whether it was enclosed or not.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was bright, but not blinding at all. I felt like I was supported by it. I felt entirely comfortable and warm.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peacefulness, excitement, happiness and confidence.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I am more certain that God exists. However, I feel less connected to him now. I am unsure why.

What is your religion now? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am more certain that God exists. However, I feel less connected to him now. I am unsure why.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Nothing matters yet everything matters at the same time. Acceptance is more important than anything.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I feel different.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I felt more than I saw or heard.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I knew it was real so it helped me get through my recovery period. It helped me get back in a car without fear.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real I'm unsure because I very well could have been hallucinating.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes My parents both passed shortly after. The part of the experience that was recreated is the feeling of wanting to live with a great amount of energy.