Experience Description

I traveled through space at great speed, once I had lost the fear of going with it. I saw a light and I went into it. It was wondrous light that engulfed everything; there was total knowledge and love. I saw my life from my addiction point of view flash before my eyes, repeated behaviors etc. I went back and saw myself in the womb.

I was then told to 'remember' I was then flicked through future decisions and happenings. I was then given a chance to view the universe's and given the opportunity to be one with it and have the knowledge of the truth. This went into stuff like time is simultaneous, everything happens at the same time, there is no then and future. The universe is not just one but infinite, wondrous and continuing to evolve. We are just one dimension; there are many planes if you like. Just as if ants are not aware of us, we are not aware of higher, evolved states of being. The greatest part was the full feeling and knowledge that in the end all there is, is love. We become one with everything and everything becomes one with us. We are here to experience this life to the fullest and must be in the NOW to do that; get rid of distractions, being addictions, destructive behaviors etc. We are here to be our best selves, which includes being what we can for others.

I no longer fear, in comparison I look forward to death. I did not want to come back, however I had two young children that I could not leave with my husband and I would have killed my unborn child.

I have never written this down before, I suppose I should, I hope that this gives you an idea.

This all happened during childbirth. I was sucking on the gas continuously overnight unsupervised, with the laughing stuff turned up to maximum. I had some visions at this time, but the last time I did it I went out -- the nurse looked at me with fear and asked me if I was alright, I knew I had to answer correctly -- the answer was no!!!! They lost my baby's heartbeat during the last two of these episodes; the last one was when I had my experience.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 10 July 2002

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Childbirth Life threatening event, but not clinical death During childbirth

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I was not here; I left and went to some other place.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? It was like being awake, it felt very real.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There was no time. Time does not matter. Infinity is truly wondrous and truly infinite, hard to comprehend with our limited minds.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I sped through a black void, but when I looked there were small lights around me, I took them for stars.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes The light was the being, communication was a knowing, like talking with minds, and there was no words. I knew, they knew. I felt one with it yet separate.

The experience included: Darkness

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Yes and when I went into it it was all encompassing. Warm, just total love.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The dimension of the afterlife.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I became one with the universe and had total knowledge for a time of everything. I remember thinking, 'That's it!!' It all fitted together and was so obvious. Time, space, meaning of life, afterlife, etc.

The experience included: Life review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control Sort of. I saw addictive behaviors and repetitive lessons quickly and therefore they became obvious. I now have a firm understanding of learning. I was given insight to total serenity.

The experience included: Vision of the future

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future Quick flashes of decisions I would have to make. Have since had remembrance of one, cannot remember them specifically now, but I am sure I will again when the situation arises.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will In the form of my parents, it was communicated that 'When will you learn the lesson. Don't take your baby with you.' Stop!!!!!

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Did not believe in afterlife or God

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Now believe in God (for lack of better word), afterlife etc. Believe that religion has got it just about right. Separation is a man thing. We are one with it all, just a piece in the puzzle.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes To put such wondrous things into words. The knowledge about time and space and infinity, it is all quite hard to explain.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Just greater insight, knowledge. Feel quite different if I truly stay in the moment. Was communicated how important it is to stay in the moment and not distracted by thoughts of other things.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I do not think that I can communicate it very well yet. People are skeptics I think. Did touch a couple of people when talked about death and not to fear it etc.