Experience Description

I was just there. It was as dark as the darkest night. I had a sense of standing before a presence. It was communicated lovingly and firmly that I could do better. Knowledge, compassion and understanding of difficult past events I had been through, were acknowledged, and I was assured that I had never been or never will be alone, not for one moment. Then I rested for some time. It was the most peaceful loving calmness I had ever felt. Then it was time for me to return. I begged and pleaded not to have to return. The love that I felt in those moments, in my eyes, did not exist down here. I argued, wanting to know when I could come back. I was told that things were still going to be difficult for a while and they would get better and then difficult again and then better again. I was told that I would be so happy here that I wouldn't want to leave. I was reassured that I would never be alone and that everything would be okay, to just keep moving forward. And then I was back.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 06/22/1987

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes AccidentDirect head injury 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' Jumped out of truck going sixty-five mph, landed on head.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal The whole time.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole time.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There was no time, there was no space, and it just was!

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was total darkness, I saw nothing, it wasn't a seeing kind of experience.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There was no sound; it wasn't a listening kind of experience either.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I don't know if I would describe it as an 'other being'. I felt like I was in the midst of pure energy.

The experience included: Darkness

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm If you want to call total darkness a distinctive location, level or dimension, well then, okay. It was if I was in a black hole in the middle of the universe surrounded by nothing but pure energy.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? See narrative.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future See narrative.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal None

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes

What is your religion now? Liberal spiritual

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes That the silly equation that all the scientist are trying to discover, the equation to everything, is the equation to pure energy. And no one is ever going to figure it out because it is so simple.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Words seem to take away from the experience. Words do not accurately describe the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Maybe, maybe not.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All of it.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes But I regret it, just like I'm starting to regret filling out this questionnaire, but I am this far, so I might as well finish.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Confused and uncertain, but I know what I experienced, I was there.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes In my mind, I can always go back to the resting place.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.