I had fallen backward off a loading dock, striking my head on the concrete below. The first thing I remember is being in a tunnel and looking out of a round window or opening. I could see my husband holding me and telling me not to go, to stay, and to come back. I didn't feel any pain. I never turned around as I kept looking through this window. I could see myself lying there. I remember thinking that I needed to go back because I couldn't leave my husband. I also remember thinking that I had to make sure that I could move my fingers and toes first to make sure I wasn't paralyzed. When I could move them, I was instantly drawn back into my body. Then, I felt the intense pain. While I was in this tunnel, I felt at peace and yet scared at the same time. My husband told me later that my eyes were open in a dead stare with no blinking, as if I was dead. I also remember looking through the window and everything was in black, white, and gray tones. There was no color. I try to make sense of all of this and all I can say is that I truly had died and was gone for a short bit.
Date NDE Occurred: 10/24/15
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Life threatening event, but not clinical death.
I had fallen backward off a loading dock striking my head on the concrete below.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I could hear my husband telling me not to go, to come back to him.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness It was the same.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Looking back through the tunnel at my body.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. What I saw was in black, white, and gray tones, whereas actual experience is seeing in color.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The same.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I was just inside of the tunnel.
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? No
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life My husband told me not to leave, not to go.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic I always attend Sunday mass every week.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I hadn't seen the bright light, but I never did turn around to see it.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I slightly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the ex I remember everything.........
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I don't understand looking back into the window and only seeing black, white, and gray tones. It was like watching an old black and white movie.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Within the first few days of my accident.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Just what I had read about.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I'm still trying to understand my experience.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I believe it was real as I could see and hear everything that was going on, I could see my body.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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