Peoples' voices where comforting me as I bled to death in the road. The last sound I remember was a helicopter overhead.
Suddenly, I was in a dark warm breezy place. It was full of stars. Voices where speaking, though not out of their mouths. The people looked like film negatives and I know they were failing somehow. There was a debate with another entity about my fate. I couldn't see him. I could only feel the knowledge and peace, and joy, like the answer to every question I ever had was answered. It bothered me afterwards when I realized that my children needed me but I only wanted to stay where I was and feel the relief from my life that I felt. Under no circumstances would I have ever wanted to be away from my babies. But I really wanted to get to that source of total peace, elation, and STAY there. Then the relative, whispering to me led me back to my body, when I woke from a coma with eight hundred stitches in my face I was devastated that I had to go back to my life. It felt like someone had played an awful trick on me. Now, in hindsight, I see the reasons for all of this, and they are invaluable.
Date NDE Occurred: May 21, 1991
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Direct head injury Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
My ex-husband was physically and emotionally abusing myself and our three young children.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal When I first left my body.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I first left my body.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time is a manmade concept; I had a sense that there was no clock where I went.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My eyes weren't seeing this; something else was processing the images.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything seemed to be whispered.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I was moving, something like a celestial warm wind.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Floating around me, comforting me, they looked like film negatives.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain I had perceived the presence of an immense light just beyond where I believe I was detained.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Elation, peace and fear of returning.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I simply was aware that I was being evaluated and deemed not ready.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes God is a forgiving entity, and so much more glorious than can actually be defined by any human standard.
What is your religion now? Moderate 'I run on faith in creation, and in the creator who is beyond terminology of my mind'
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes God is a forgiving entity, and so much more glorious than can actually be defined by any human standard.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I am now certain I was sent back to do many things for which I was destined, and I have a sense of faith that transcends any religion.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Now I have a soulmate.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I could not put the experience into an accurate context in my life until it was meant for me to do so in the course of my life, plus not a lot of people seemed accepting when I attempted to relate the experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes As an artist I describe this ability as a spiritual sense of empathy toward other beings.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The one part that is most significant to me now is that I know my twenty-three year old son is safe and waiting on me. He died suddenly in 2008 and made very subtle contact with me afterwards on several occasions.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I think my parents believed me even though it was somewhat difficult to compute, but we have grown very much closer over the years.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I was depressed because I didn't get to heaven.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real The same, only it makes really vital sense of my life.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No