There are some things about this experience that I can't put into words and won't try because it will probably deliver the wrong impression.
In mid-November 1974, I was twelve years old and was introduced to cigarette smoking. I remember watching my father draw in his cigarettes as I grew. One of my friends handed me a cigarette and I lit it and took a draw and inhaled just like my father did. It was painful and I remember bending over trying to find air. I was gasping. The next thing I recall I was in a state much like a dream where it was dark but there was something in front of me that at that moment I identified with but can't now, sorry! All I can say about it is it was bright and lit and the only colors I can put to it is white and yellow. I then felt myself moving forward very, very fast. What is difficult to explain is at the very same time. I was able to see some of my surroundings. I was sitting upright on the ground in the schoolyard where I had fallen and I was looking at the toes of my shoes.
Little by little I began to become more conscious of the state I was in and was looking up at the object before me getting closer and acknowledging more and more it's power and greatness. The feelings I felt about its greatness where not just mine but I had a sense that that feeling was shared from many others as I did not feel alone although I didn't see anyone. I had absolutely no thoughts of my life or what just happened. I just focused on the lit object.
As the speed of my movement continued it was interrupted with sounds that seemed foreign and I immediately lost focus on the lit object and focused on my toes, still sitting upright only this time I saw and felt my hair in my face. I felt and heard a buzzing noise and sensation and awoke looking up at my scared friends as I lay flat on the ground. I remember being in pain with a big knot on the back of my head.
I never forgot this over the years and never thought about its significant until I began to get older. I fainted many times in my life after that but never experienced what I did on that day.
Date NDE Occurred: 'November 15, 1974'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Accident Loss of ability to breath 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
Well, all I did was pass out because I couldn't breathe. Two people with me had scared faces when I awoke. They said I wouldn't wake up and one thought I was dead.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? At the moment when I felt many share my feelings of the greatness of the lit object I saw before me.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Boy this is tough. This is why I never talked about it until now. Vision was not the same. It was more of a focus than vision although I can remember and reflect details that I can easily explain in a vision, such as depth (when I was looking at my toes) and the colors of the object. I don't know if this belongs in this column, but included in that focus was the awareness of feeling and feelings shared.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I only remember hearing things after I quit focusing on the object.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I wouldn't say a tunnel but something more like a series of rings.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No Saw no other beings.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Definitely saw a light with huge significance and importance.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I remember being in a shared state with many many others. That is the best I can explain.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I think I did. I didn't know what to think at the time but I remember sitting upright while on the ground and looking at my toes. However, my physical body was lying flat on my back. I did not take notice of it by turning around and looking at it, I just looked at my toes and was upright.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I saw or experienced nothing of the sort. I did not learn anything that helped me in my life but I do reflect sometimes on the importance of the lighted object.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Not really religious.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate Believe in a creator.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Pretty much all of it. The feeling I had at different points, the knowledge I had of what I was looking at when in this life it doesn't even exist, the absolute certainty of the power and greatness of what I was looking at.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, the extreme power and importance of that lighted object.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real I was a child at the time and didn't know what to do with it but definitely felt something had happened. That object, and the significance about it is just too powerful to write off as a dream.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real I feel I will see that again at the end of my life exactly the way it happened before but be allowed to continue and find out more about the lit object and the feelings around it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Only that as time progresses I feel I need to discuss it but will never do such a thing with people I know. At the same token, I don't want to be associated with storytellers either. I have always been curious about what happened to me that day so I have read many accounts from different people and just have trouble believing many of them.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Nothing else.