Like I said I was being strangled by someone, it was a man and I tried to resist with all my strength. I soon found out I wasn't strong enough.
I then saw my life flash before my eyes, I also saw my parents and my children in the future and their sorrow. At that same moment or maybe one second later, I felt myself leaving my body. I found I was in a tube and I was sucked towards the light. It was a very liberating feeling; there was an ultimate feeling of love and freedom but most of all no fear and no pain. Before I came to the light, I stopped and saw my deceased grandfather peek over the edge. I went further because I wanted to go to the light. I wanted to be 'there' but my grandfather became very angry, he looked at me very angrily and shouted, 'It's not your time yet, you have to go back.'
I don't know if the person strangling me felt this or if my grandpa really helped me with certain powers. But the one strangling me let go of my throat at that very moment and I returned to my body.
Date NDE Occurred: juli 2000
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Criminal attack 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
I was being strangled.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I think it was at the moment I felt myself leaving my body and when I saw my life pass before my eyes like a movie.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes A dark tube, I was sucked towards the light at the end of the tube.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw my deceased grandpa; he was standing in the light waiting for me at the entrance of the tube. He was very angry with me (that was a huge disappointment because I had expected him to be happy to see me). He shouted: 'Go back it is not your time yet'!!!
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes At the end of the tube was a very bright light which didn't hurt my eyes though.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Ik was eigenlijk meer op de grens, ik mocht niet uit de buis stappen, ik moest in het donker blijven van mijn opa. Dus ben niet daadwerkelijk daar geweest. Ik wilde wel heel graag
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt immense freedom and happiness, I wanted to go to the light. I realized that this was death.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control In a very short but extremely fast film I saw images from my past.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes The boundary was from the dark tube to the bright light. My grandpa didn't allow me to pass that boundary.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I believe in God, I don't go to church every Sunday but my faith has grown. I also started to loose myself in the spiritual world and that has brought me many good things. I do this consciously in a dosed way. I don't want this to start controlling my life.
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believe in God, I don't go to church every Sunday but my faith has grown. I also started to loose myself in the spiritual world and that has brought me many good things. I do this consciously in a dosed way. I don't want this to start controlling my life.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I have come to look at life in a different way, I'm not afraid of death anymore. I have much more strength inside myself; I don't really need other people anymore. I am a much stronger woman. I know that my deceased grandpa and grandma protect me. I have complete faith in that. I feel their presence. And I know that whatever I do I will be sent back when it is not my time!
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I think so but I am not consciously doing anything with it. Because of this experience, I learned a lot about the spiritual life, but I want to take it one-step at the time. When I'm ready I know that my special gifts will reveal themselves.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Absolutely, I knew instantly that dying is not as bad as I had always thought before the experience. The fact that my deceased grandpa was there made me realize that a person who is close to you during your earthly life is always waiting for you when it is your time. The most intense experience is probably the fact that I have someone who has protected me from death. I don't know if that person was my grandpa but I think it was.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I think it took me seven years before I could tell anyone about this. I think I have always hidden it away before that. I started thinking about it the moment my grandmother died. I started talking about it but only to people who are very near to me. The reactions varied, most people were understanding but I noticed they didn't want to know anything more. Others asked many questions. But I find that unless someone has had the same experience nobody really understands.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I loved the fact that my grandpa was waiting for me and that he probably protected me from death. I liked being there, in the dark as well as in the light. In both situations I felt totally free and happy.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Still the same as shortly after the experience.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No