Daniel C SMR

Experience Description

I walked into my room where my girlfriend at the time was lying on the bed. I laid on top of her and we started kissing, not for sexual purpose, but out of a force that I cannot explain. After a few minutes, it seemed with every breath I took I fell deeper and deeper into somewhere beyond where I have been before. It was dark for a long time, but I kept going deeper and feeling stronger and stronger than I ever have before, and out of blackness came light (colorful brilliant light). And if you were to consider the universe as a blanket. It seemed as if I made a small cut in the fabric of time and space, and poked my head through to be greeted by another soul.

I remember feeling my soul physically come out of me and her soul did the same and we met in the middle and entangled for what seemed like an eternity. And then after it had become too much for either one of us to handle, we pulled away, paused momentarily while maintaining perfect eye contact. We muttered to each other as if we had no control over what to say. We both said ‘I love you.’ Yes, I've said it to people before without really knowing what it meant at all. But, at that second, I knew, I really knew. And that's the first time I've said it in complete and utter honesty. I still love and I still feel but nothing that can match any experience I have ever had. And I believe that I will never feel it again. And I feel extremely proud and honored that I had something I know not many people will ever experience. Really, words can't explain what happened. If words could explain it, then people I've told would understand. The only other person who understands is my soulmate.

It really scared her.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: April 2003

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. kissing Other 'uniting of souls, falling in love, soulmates'

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal The only way I could explain it is by saying for one second I understood there was no wonder, no doubt, no need to reason or toil. It was all there right in front of me and it seemed the only reason it stopped was because it got too intense, almost that I had seen too much, that it was only a preview of the actuality of life and love, the pursuit of love is all I can explain. If that makes any sense.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When it felt like our souls met, it felt heavenly. That there was no pain. Only this beautiful energy that completely penetrated my entire soul. It was everything great you could feel all felt at once. The whole process kept building and building until the point when our souls said hello for the first time (or for possibly thousand and thousands of years).

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening all at once Yeah 10 seconds (+ or -); it felt like a lifetime.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more so

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't even think I could see; colors were so intense, mostly blues, reds, purples, yellows and oranges.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I really don't recall any auditory sense it seemed calm and warm though.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Neither

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Not even a tunnel or enclosure, it felt as if I penetrated time and space. Think of it as one of those cone collars that they put on dogs so that they can't bite out stitches. It felt that the time and space that we know of was in my body and my head was poking through a place that I had never been before. That's not the only way I can describe it, but it seems logical to me.

Did you see any beings in your experience? Neither

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My soulmate (I believe). I knew her more than I knew myself. It was understanding. Love was the only message, well and understanding too.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Yes all kinds of light, but not that it was light, it was more like energy.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Clearly mystical or unearthly realm I can't describe it really i was just somewhere i can't desrcibe well

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Overwhelming joy, laughter, and love that cannot be described.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? United, one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? Neither

Did scenes from the future come to you? From the world's future Yes and no. I can't explain this one

Did you come to a border or point of no return? A barrier I was not permitted to cross; or 'sent back' to life involuntarily

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain Well, I still don't know what to think about God and the afterlife; I've always had my own ideas about it all.

What is your religion now? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain Well, I still don't know what to think about God and the afterlife; I've always had my own ideas about it all.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? Neither

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I felt no worry or pain. It felt as though my soul was elevated to higher being.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes we've gotten closer and gone further apart every time we meet. Seriously, I know though I just want her to be happy whatever that is.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Uncertain. My mother is very spiritual, has raised me to feel feelings, and read energy from a person. I don't see the future or anything, but I am good at reading people and knowing a sense of who they are without even talking to them.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The whole thing, but mostly the meeting of souls.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Yes that's what's so scary about it. I know she felt relatively the same thing. I mean, we have talked about it and really it sucks because it scared her really bad.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Yes, but that's another story.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Well I've analyzed it every day for two years and I know I love her and I feel she is my soulmate. The problem is we live in this world, we (her and I) are so young, and we both have different goals right now. But for some reason I feel I know we will be together again when we are comfortable with our own lives and that is the hardest part.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real The thing is I can't explain that and I don't know if I ever will be able to. Maybe when I die, that's when you should ask me.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain Well, I've done acid and mushrooms, but nothing ever compared to this.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I hope someone can give me advice or some clue as to what happened.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? ? It was actually very good; I just hope you respond to me.