Experience Description

I had consumed a large amount of pills and alcohol. When I came to, I was floating above my body. It was a very neutral feeling initially. I remember it being dark. I started to ascend towards light and feeling joy - although that word does not do justice to what I was feeling. Then I was told to go back. It is not your time. I remember feeling sad. I have no conscious memory of going back in my body. I woke the next day, ill from the side effects of the poisons I had put in my body.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: Fall 1971

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening' I attempted suicide.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal During the time I was ascending towards the light.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the time I was ascending towards the light.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There was not a sense of time at all. It was totally not relevant to what I was experiencing.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I felt as if I was on the edge of being able to see EVERYTHING. It was very bright and clear.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I wouldn't describe it as a tunnel, but it was dark initially when I found myself hovering above my physical body.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I heard a voice and sensed a presence telling me to go back. It isn't your time.

The experience included: Darkness

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes As I ascended I was drawn towards light. It wasn't a light, but Light in a total state of being and awareness.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm What I have previously described.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Initially I felt empty, then full of joy and then sadness at having to return.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future My sixth sense became more developed and is more accurate than not.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Unity

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I try to be more cognizant in my daily life that there is a higher power and to plug in to that presence.

What is your religion now? Liberal 'Metaphysical, Unity and Science of Mind'

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I try to be more cognizant in my daily life that there is a higher power and to plug in to that presence.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain I knew I was not supposed to die.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Because I was rather young when it happened, I find this difficult to answer. I am not sure if some of my behavioral patterns started happening before this experience or after.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain Not everyone is receptive to hearing about this kind of experience. Leaving your body, hovering above your physical self is not something a lot of people can identify with.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes My sixth sense became more acute. I have spirits that are having a difficult time making their transition come to me and ask me to communicate things to their loved ones still here on earth. I can on occasion channel from someone on the other side. Electronics behave erratically on me; watches don't run, I short out car radios etc.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Being sent back.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Probably four years. I think they were more upset from the suicide aspect than being concerned with the out of body experience. They were relieved that I was not successful in my attempt.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain Being fifteen years of age and having studied metaphysics; I would not be surprised that I had heard of this. It did not affect my experience.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I continued to experience depression and while I acknowledged what had happened, my body continued to want to shut down.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It happened. I know we all have a purpose here whether it is clear or not to us. I believe it is clear to some and not to others. This experience happened to me and continues to show to me that I do have a purpose here.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No