I was lying down. I felt a presence over me and near my face. It felt like something was sucking the air out of my lungs and my own breath was cold when it came out of my body and my lips became very cold. I sat up because I couldn't breathe. I opened my back door to get air and when I looked outside there was this beautiful blue-white light coming from the sky. I could see very far as if a nuclear bomb had went off outside. It was 3:30 am and I could see for miles it seemed. I couldn't hear anything and it was so peaceful. I wasn't afraid. Which surprises me. A picture of my daughters flashed in my mind I guess. My oldest was first and then my youngest. I said the words, 'GOD I am not ready.' The light slowly started to return to the sky and my body took a deep breath. The paramedics arrived a few moments later and my BP was 226/182. After this my body and mind were so tired. I felt drained of all my energy.
Date NDE Occurred: 'December 30,2008'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain unsure 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
Blood pressure was 226/182 when paramedics arrived.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Not sure.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Not sure.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It seemed as though time slowed down for me.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Afterwards I could see better than I have in my life. Everything was vivid and the colors were magnificent.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The traffic was louder and I heard the birds chirping that morning very clearly.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was blue-white, coming closer from the sky. It was very early morning and I could see the mountains very clearly.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calmness, peaceful.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist none
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal became very spiritual
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I feel as if I was given a choice that night whether I wanted to stay or go.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No I am no longer angry. I am willing to help others. Whole perception on life has changed. Have tolerance for people.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Ability to see auras.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The flash of the pictures of my daughters and my speaking the words 'God I am not ready'.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Uncertain
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Will explain.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No