I remember trying to breathe and every breath was harder than the last. Then all at once a feeling of comfort overwhelmed me and I thought, 'It's over at last.' Then I was home and all around me was pure white light and total love and caring and a comfort I've never known nor will I forget. I couldn't see anyone but knew I was not alone and had nothing to fear. All the time, there was this overpowering feeling that I had made it home at last. After a life-long wait, everything was perfect and my life was now complete. Then I felt heavy pressure in my chest and I opened my eyes not knowing where I was. My wife was standing at my side crying. I asked what was wrong and where am I. Then I remembered where I had been, what I had seen, what I had felt, I love my wife but I felt a sadness of loss because I had been home but just for a short visit. I love life, but I know what awaits me and it's wonderful.
Date NDE Occurred: 2004
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
Upper gastrointestinal bleed, lost 60% of blood, blood pressure 46 over 13 body temp 95F.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While I was in the light a pure white light that words cannot describe.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Space and time had no meaning there.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I wear glasses but my vision had no bounds, I was physically perfect or better.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was as though I didn't need to hear I just knew what was happening.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain It was like a room with no walls, floor or ceiling.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was everywhere around me.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm don't know what to call it but home
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt comfort, joy, happiness, relief at the end of journey, and peace everywhere.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I try to be more understanding of others and help others.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes About a year, got a weird look.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Nothing.